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Thursday, September 25, 2008

*` i'm becoming much more determined now,
and i wanna let bygones be bygones cause i believe everything is about the heart and soul*

i don't know why,
i suddendly decided to forget what had happened in class today
forget about all the past
and all thanks to my dear boyfriend.
i don't know but within split seconds he can make me change my mind.

we somehow had a 'small talk'
cause of things that i've created and he wanna clarify everything so that,
there will be no more arguments between us
and i know he did all this because he love me dearly.

i think all this small arguments that is happening everyday
have to STOP!
cause it's really not healthy to argue over some stupid matter
and you know who always start the arguments?
ITS YOURS TRULY!
BOOOOHOOOO!
:DD

i'm so selfish sometimes,
infact most of the times.
and i only think about my pathetic emotions
i put all my sadness/stressness/grieveness/angryness all onto him
and it is so so much burden for him to carry all on his two pair of shoulders.
i wanna be someone better, but i just cannot find a way to be one.

and because of that i cause him to hurt alot,
well people might see us as a very happy couple
but they don't know how mean i am towards him sometimes,
so now i declare that i'm a MEAN GIRL!
hahaha ((:
self-declaration sikit uh, at least mengaku kan.
nyehehehe!

since the festive season coming,
i decided to erased all the bad memories in the past and
to just forget and forgive those people who might have hurt me in a way or another
and also i hope they forgive my bad doings to them or watsoever.
and right now,
im trying to slowly forget about that 'bitch' ( boyfriend know her very well )
but i seriously cannot hear/see her name, hear her voice and wats more looking at her face
so irritating, like very menyampah gitu!
hahah :D

gaaaah,
and you know who i need most to guide me in doing all this sort of things?
my darling boyfriend
cause he is a very forgivable person and i've been pressurizing him to many times already.
but that one, later2 can mintak maaf.
hahaha :D

so in conclusion,
i had fun with boyfriend today
so so so much fun lah!
hehe

anyhoos,
i also decided to stop skipping/cabotting school
it's very dangerous and very addictive you know!
hahah
and i really have to stop it man!
i need to have good grades yo!
;PPP

oh and yes,
tomorrow will be our preview for reflections and debut
darn it!
i really hope i can stay longer tmr,
but i dun care
i'll stay longer too.
balik kena marah lain cerita eh!
hahaha :D

alrite now,
update more soon
now waiting for that little monkey of mine to go online.
hehe ((:

timecheck: 11.22pm
location: on my single bed
plug in to: some random lagu raya

ps: please don't stop loving me cause i know, i need you the most and
you're the only one that can fix my loose mind. i thank god for you the most precious gift ever (:

Love, FERRA
:PPPPPPP