pills & you;

*` if i have one wish,
that wish is to stay with my father and nothing else matters *

i seriously think i screwed up with my life
my school, socialising with people and my family.
i don't know where i went wrong
but i know everything i do is wrong to people.

i'm eighteen but i feel more like eight years old.
are young adults suppose to be treated like this?
if nag i still can accept it
but if i talk in a nice manner, should i be shouted back?
i really wonder what am i to them.

it's easy for people to say ' take it easy ' blablabla
but nobody really understand how i feel
the situation i'm in right now.
there's just so many things is happening but i cannot listed it down here.
why?
because i still respect them.

and i never try to think of this,
but i seriously think of leaving this house.
it's more like a hell now to me.
the festive season is coming soon,
and i think im at wreck.

i seriously don't feel like goin out with them celebrating
instead just stay at home and do what i normally do.
i don't feel the excitement like the rest
i don't feel the eager to wear those traditional clothes.
why? all thanks to them for making me feel useless here.

i told you,
im a NOBODY to them
just mayb some slaves, perhaps?
gaaah.
i don't wish to talk now.

oh and yes,
i still hate that super irritating bitch
and i know boyfriend know who i'm referring too.
you're sucha pain in the ass, girl.
and you're nothing but just some girl who thinks so highly of yourself.
go get a life.

goodbye

Love, Ferra