pills & you;

Just three words,
I LOVE YOU !

MUHD DINIE FARIS,
thank you alot.
you really brigten up my day
and i'm your happy princess !
((:

ps: and i wish i could tell the whole world how much i love you and how much you mean to me,
but that will require thousand pages to fill in all the lines.

GOODNIGHT AGAIN, this time really !
((:

*` it's ok to loose something but not somebody like you *

first of all,
Happy belated 15th Monthsary Muhd Dinie Faris !
it's not like i didn't wish you personally ok,
i just update this thing a little late than normal.
heee (:

secondly, MUSE if getting nearer!
and i'm excited
but still need to do a lot of things more, for myself.
such as more confidence when dancing, less shy, and do the things right.
haha.
well, sorta checklist.

and thirdly,
i had fun today during practices
i laughed alot with dearest ehem,
and i just wish to share it with my another 3 girls.
they know who.
heeeee :DD

i figured out alot of things today,
not so many but quite
to make me realised something
but im trying to forget about all the negative ones,
cause i knw it will bring no good to me and the people around me
so i think it's best that we forgive but not forget yet, but just bear in mind.
how bout that,
i bet it sounds fair enough right?

so yes,
tomorrow practice again
and loverboy's PP Presentation is tomorrow in the morning
all the best ok love?
you can do it bro !!!!
:DDD

i think that's all for now,
i'm bored.
haha

GOODNIGHT!

Love, FERRA
:D

*` i feel like rainbows and butterflies whenever you're here *

it's been quite sometimes since i enter this virtual space of mine
and
it's been quite sometimes too since i last online in msn
and yes, some have been asking.
((:

i've been too tired of dance practice
and
i think i'll follow what my boyfy said
after reflections take sometime break from dance.

i'm really draining out of energy
even though i love the losing weight and get sweaty during dance
but still, i need my own time back
i need my ownself back like how i used to have.

and people,
please buy the reflections;muse tickets
i feel irritated if they were to pester me.
haha :D

raaah,
its past midnite now.
i still haveta bath
grrr
;//

till here then people.
im missing alot of things now,
and i'm worried.

goodnight
gooday
goodmorning.

Love, FERRA
:D

*` i wish they understand cause this is what i want and what i've been wanting to do *

i need basic respect from people.
people to respect my wants and don'ts
people to respect what i need to do
people to respect my decisions
and
people to respect me as who i am.

sorry is the most easiest way to say to others
but do we really mean it?
if we do, without even 'pleading' people will forgive you cause the man above will open our heart to forgive and forget someone who is sincere enough to apologize.

but to those who just say it for the sake of saying it,
do we really have to forgive them?
i had enough of shits,
and today is really a day full of shits for me.

i had the most bad day today
and
there is many incidents that happened today,
that really kinda ticks me off
and to the extent,
it makes me feel worst!

i don't understand
why is it so hard for people to just understand us
and let us do whatever we want as long as
we didn't do anything wrong
am i right?

dancing is my passion
and
i ain't quitting no matter how busy i will be.

raah,
wait till somebody reach home
i'll talk to you.

i need to rest my body, mind and soul now
)':

GOODBYE.

*` i missed being feel like this, and when it comes it feels as though i'm a superstar *

finally the showcase is over!
yabedabedo !!!
wooohoooo !!!
:DDDDDDDDD

i'm very euphoric cause i had lotsa fun today
and i believe each and every of the juniors and seniors had fun
and the most important thing,
we did our best and we show what we got
although there might be some mistake here and there,
but i believe our four months of practicing have not gone to waste!

most of the feedback i got,
our group improved like alot lot lot and lot!
and i know we have give it all and yes,
i hope the crowd love us !

i was feeling nervous and all,
but nonetheless i was super excited to perform can?!
haha
until i was too hyper that i sorta doing some parts that i'm not supposed to do!
very hyper cannot tahan anymore
:PPPPPPP

the feeling is somehow indescribable
the satisfaction that we have
after we got all the hurtful critics and everything,
we managed to have some positive feedback have already make us more than happier!

thank you RocaPhaze for being there for each other
and to cooperate with each other in a team, is not an easy task you know.
thank you for making our practices much more easier and smoother,
and also i believe we enjoyed our every meetings though there might be some arguments and all
but look what we have now?

we got people cheer for us,
and i know you all did your best to the maximum
so it is the most perfect time ever to just shout and jump and do whatever you want!
heeee ((:
i love you guys alot and am looking forward for more performances with you all
:DDD

and to the other groups,
you all rock the stage like nobody business
soul simple, TE, dashbotz
you guys were great!
and i'm super happy that we all get to dance together and be as one family!
i love you all
;PPPP

yippeeeee!!!!!

and now,
back to busy with Reflections:MUSE 2008!
hahaha :D

one down,
another to go!
so people show some love
and support SGC !

DO BUY THE TICKETS AT 10 BUCKS ONLY!
ALRITEY?
Oh, you can tag me if you want.
((:

ps: i also would like to thanks Muhd Dinie Faris our co-mentor so called,
cause he have helped alot in my group. With all the remixes, songs, the sleep till late at 4 am just to finish painting and decorating all our masks, and to be there for every practices and give out ideas to us and teach us some choreos and everything. you're the best even as a friend and whats more a boyfriend to me (: and god knows i love you so much and thank you for everything that you have done for the group.

not forgetting, Ahmad and Shayen who have also helped us alot and evaluating us and give us feedback is much appreciated. To Jason and ALL THE STYLE GROOVAZ SENIORS, on behalf of the juniors i would like to thank all of you for never stop showing your care and concern, scoldings and naggings, crtisizing and everything to us and i believe because of u all, we actually SHINE! ( ZhiWEN's Fav WORD ) So thank you especially to AShraf for our debut finale and for being the irritating but BEST Junior Manager of all !

:')
( awwww, tears of joyyyy )

enough of this already,
very emotional.
LOL :D

till here then,
GOODNIGHT!

Much Love, FERRA
<3

today is the day,
butterflies in my stomach !

oh shit!(:

Love, FERRA
:DDDDD

Masquerade @ 7
16th Oct 2008, Thurs
1230pm-1.15pm
TRCC Studio, Level 2

today is the full dress rehersal ,
and guess what?!

I FORGOT TO BRING MY COSTUME AND EVERYTHING!
this is like very scary can?
lol :D

thank god i stay around here,
i'm leaving class after presenting
and will be goin home to take my costume.
grrrr.

very leceh man.
i hope no make-up required.
please.

alritey now.
gotta rush my ppt now!

and people, show some love and support alritey?
whoever reading my blog,
do come for the showcase
:DDDD

Love, FERRA
(:

*` you will never let me fall even in the toughest time *

i'm in class and i'm starving.
i forgot to ask mother for cash
and now im rotting in class doing worksheet and chatting with that dearest boyfy of mine
(:

and as sweet as always,
he's cooking and bringing some food for me!
yaynesss!

i wanted maggi badly, and he's cooking for me
and he will be bringing me jellyfish and some friend foodss!
wooohoooo!!!

hungry like mad cow.
haha

ok, bye.

Love, FERRA
:D

*` whatever happens, we both will be strong together and never let it go *

its 5.52am
and i've been awake since 4am just now,
i couldn't sleep after something happened
ehem*
boyfy know now wat was it.
teeeheeeheee ((:

and now my tummy growling
and im outta breathe.
debut is this thursday,
and i think there's nothing more we can do
except for cleaning up and stuff
and yes, i'm figuring out the question i asked boyfy ytd.
lol :D

anyhoos, UT will be in 4 hours time
fret i won't study.
i never study for UT except for last min glance through during the test itself,
pathetic?
tell me about it.

- mom awake, shit -

heck.
goodmorning and goodnight people

learn to smile each and every morning
cause it makes me happy
(:

Love, FERRA

*` if that is what you think, then you can walk off *

i have my own privacy,
for goodness sake

it like might as well you post it in friendster or youtube or anything so the whole world know
what you think of me.

i'm freaking dissapointed.
)':

*` there is nothing more i can ask for than this blissful day *

SATURDAY

so finally the weekend kicked in
well now it's ending
but watever it is, i had the most fun during this weekend .
heee (:

first thing first,
on saturday i followed bf and his ex secondary schoolmates for jalan raya.
so the whole day we were at East side, since they from there
and the last house was mine at woodlands.
suke dorang jalan jauh2 naik car (:

so there were total of four cars,
and ended up left with two only cause about two of them who is the owner have to go home already.
dearest boyfy drove his car, and it was fun lah.
the only special thing about this year, is this.
raya with frens.

and first time of all, i finish jalan raya at 12 plus and that is with frens !
haha.
and boyfy reached home ard 2 plus am cause he send his frens home.
shiok eh!

i really enjoyed myself with him and his friends
bunch of nice people
((:

so yes, that's how our day end.
and pics are still pending,
i've yet to receive them from siti.

FRIDAY

we had our debut rehersal,
and haveta showed to mr zaini.
ehem -_-

my group had the lowest rank can?!
he gave us 2/10?!
tsskkk
but nvm though,
and we the only group have to perform second time.
like ape aje.

i was kinda dissapointed with myself though,
feel like u knw , crying.
cause i forgot some steps and all.
haha.
but then i cannot be a crybaby.
it's just a rehersal nothing much.

i'm so gonna do my best on the actual day.
heee
((:
and the day end quite ok cause reason being,
im excited for saturday raya outing.
haha.

SUNDAY

today i went Jb by myself,
cause i got no friends to accompany me
so i bought some stuff
and im a happy girl!
haha.

that's all i gotta say!

Goodnight lovelies!

Love, FERRA
:D

*` i am who i am, and you gotta accept me to love me *

class have been fine,
so far.
but today's topic is kinda very chim!
heeee (:

i cannot wait to finish class,
so can dance.
lol :D

ppt not done yet.
haha.
and now is like 2.34pm
-_-

there was no aircon and lights few seconds ago,
and now there is.
i was hoping no ppt today
since it's black out?
:/

dad will be goin back kl today,
gonna miss him now.
and mom will be goin there soon.
):

alrite till here then,
faci's here.

ps: sayang, i wanna play poool! teach me again! :DDD

Love, FERRA

*` i never change and i will always be with you,
through thick and thin *

so that was what we do in the afternoon
play pool at school's library, galilee cafe.
me, pool?
haha.
i'm a noob i tell you.

but he claimed i'm a good noob!
haha.
oh well, i scored few shots
and yes, i'm impressed that even though i just learn JUST NOW
i won him 2 games, prolly by luck
but i really hit the balls!
haha.

glad as i am.
and i cannot wait to play with him again
and soon can follow bro to play pool
nyehehe.
see not only boys can play.
:PP

im so doomed tmr!
i'm kinda scared and nervous to go class.
haha.
whatever la ehks.

anyhoos,
dance was ok just now.
everything was ok today
except that there's so many many things in my mind

that i somehow vent my 'anger' at boyf just now.
i also don't know why.
very pelik.

and and to someone dearest,
thank you for the-you-know-what.
i wasn't expecting that much
but really i spend it wisely,
insyallah (:

that is all,
and gonna need some rest and sleep well
so i will be early tmr!
haha.

GOODNIGHT lovelies.

i wish i can forget about it, about everything
and don't mind you but everytime you're infront of me,
i feel so disgusted to even look at you.
you're just so gross.

Love, FERRA
(:

*` will be my second and i'm gonna do it for sure *

people who interested in coming,
please tag at my tagboard and place an order.
one ticket cost $10 and it will be a promising show,
i hope.
((:

and please come and support SGC
or probably me???
hahah :D
ok lovelies???

now, chilling at bro's room
and chatting with darling Marsh and Hamid
bout random stuff.

Boyfy's fam just went home about an hour ago.
they visit my house
and it is his parents and my parents first time meet
and im kinda suprised they get along pretty well
so yes.

ytd had a lil arguments with him,
and when saw him just now
tak jadi nk masam-masam muka
haha.
cause know why?
he very handsome uh.
cannot carry man!
LOL :DD

and me being shy-shy cat,
very funny uh
i suddenly blur dun know where to go and say to them.
like ape je eh.
:PP

oh and yes, parents and bro ask me to register driving class at BBDC TOMORROW!
me, drive?!
tat's very cool and unusual.
haha.
they sponsor, best !

ok till here then.
and tmr will be a new week and day and everything
(:

Love, FERRA

*` syawal can never fail to bring us tears of happiness,
and seeking forgiveness among each other *

First of all,
Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin to all muslims all over the world
and to those people who know me and reading this virtual blog of mine,
i hope this year syawal can make us all a better person than the past years.
(:

and speaking of my first of raya,
i always get very rushing cause i will always be the almost last person to get ready EVERY YEAR
hahaha
i don't even know what took me so long to get ready
when all i have was a light make up and dressing up.

and after the tearing and seeking of forgiveness,
we had a scrumptious of food being serve,
by the greatest cooker beside my mum and dad and bro, is my nenek
((:

oh and yes, my first day of raya was at JB
teeehee (:
it's not kampong neither banglow.
but just terrace house that is big enough to fit the BIG FAMILY of mine.
lol :D

after that we head to my atuk's house
which is at JB also
and again we filled our tummy with great food by the another greatest cooker of all.
heeeeee :P

and by then i'm bloated.
hahaha

after that we head back to singapore after magrib
and we just visited few houses.
then we all hit the sack and knocked out.

and guess what?
i'm late for schoool the following day AGAIN!'
haha.
it's like almost everyday i'm late.
thank you so so much.
:/

so that sum up my first day of raya
second and third, dun mention
i spent it in school
-__-

and today?
mum and bro went to graveyard in the morning with the relatives
and me and dad at home.
:DD
waiting for them and then prolly will continue visiting relative's houses.
i'm damn tired can?!
haha.

and yes,
my uncle yusof and irfan haqeem and maya asyura is in singapore!!
hoorrrraaay!!!
my uncle with his family of coz, cik julie and their newborn baby faatin hana.
hehe.
i'm so glad to see them here.
and especially to haq and maya!
i miss them truckloads.

and know why i love them so much?
because i somehow took care of them for 3-4 months when i was in Dubai
especially the little girl,
who many said that she is my TWIN!
haha.
and yes, she really looookkkk exactly like me when i was a toodler.
well, genes pass down you know.

so yes,
im looking forward to see them later if we all jalan raya.
nyehehehe (:
and suprisingly, irfan haqeem remembered his kakak ferra.
so sweet and that makes me wannnaaa keep him here!
haha :D

ok enough said.
i'm going to edit more photos.

oh and yes,
i think RocaPhaze new remix is so loved by them
and i hope this will boost up their energy to perform and learn choreo and formations in no time
and we get sycro by the time we perform.
hopefully, those lovelies reading my blog
i do this for you all and so you all cannot dissapoint me ok?
nyehehehe (:

sayang koranggg.

'Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir dan Batin'

Love, FERRA
:D