pills & you;

*` i keep on wondering when will it be like the last time *

i just misss you,
the old you
who was once understanding and not demanding.

the old you who love me for who i am
not trying to change me into someone you wish for
and
i know it's a good change
but it's not the time yet

i won't go around to exposed myself like how you think i will
i know my limits
and you have to.

being more close doesn't mean controlling each other, right?
so why is there a need to control me?

when i'm trying my best to set you free
do your things,
mingle with your friends
and letting you have your life

here you are,
stopping me doing all the stuff i'm doing.

what i'm leading is my normal life
and you're trying to change it.

everyone agree i've changed a little
i spend more of my time with you
and they keep whining
but did i ever once complain ?

i need my space too.
please stop bombarded me with questions
and give me the sarcastic face when you don't like what i wear.
or worst still, laugh sarcastically.

i wanna live my own life.
just stop doing this to me.
that's all i'm asking for.
i miss my old life, somehow.

but i know,
this life now is effing beautiful too
(minus off the controlling part)
it will be more than superb.

ps: i hope this make you think a little,
i love for the person you are
and not what i want you to be.

im sorry for being rude and all to you,
i love you a lot
and i don't wish to prolong this,
cause it's not necessary at all.

so please understand.

GOODAY now.

Love,
FERRA