pills & you;

*` i need someone to hold my back,
but seems like there's no one *

today is so fcuked up.
sorry for being vulgar
but that's what i really need to let out.

today i had the feeling of being free from control
free from anyone
and i can just go anywhere i want
and i can talk with whoever i meet without someone getting jealous and restrict me too.

i just feel free,
and i miss this feeling
very badly.

i hate to be control
but i just cannot afford to rebel and say NO.
yes, it is indeed unfair for me.

i know i feel guilty after this cause i surely hurt someone's feelings
but
i need to let this go just once.

and yes, another pathetic thing that add more to my fcuked up day,
someone told me that the design i want to wear for my performance
is like 'biting' this someone design.

like what?
i look at H** and see what H** wear all or what?!
assshole.
don't mention that person name infront of me.

fcuk H**!
BITCHFACE!

im so pissed right now,
like totally!

im seriously off this shit, pigheads!

ps: to anyone reading this who feel offended, you've read it so don't bother ask me who, why, what, how, blablabla cause i won't give a damn answer and whoever think they are the one just don't ask me anything more and HUSH, and take note. UNDERSTAND?