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Monday, February 23, 2009

*` to be honest i do love them, but now i realized i don't really need them anymore *

do i sound emo?
haha :D
fret not.

im super tired and exhausted
and more importantly, im super STRESS.
not only dancework to think off,
i need to think about studies and financially and home
and there is just a lot for me to do.

everytime reach home from dance, work or anywhere
the house will in a very big mess.
that can lead me to being stress.

during practices, by repeating the steps all over again
can lead to another stress.

while checking the letterbox
and see many many letter from government,
can lead to more stress.

and today,
i just get to know i have to repeat one more module
and i have yet to retake my O'lvl science
and this is another BIGGER problem that leads to MORE stress

by thinking of how i have to settle every of my problems my own
is very stressful.
i wish to have more people that i can rely on.
someone who is sincere and trustworthy.

if you think not getting enough allowance from your parents is stressful,
wait till you be in my position.

i'll get scolded with brothers for not cleaning up the house,
i have to work for myself to get what i wanted but with what im earning now ,
i dont think i can even afford a shoe that i've been eyeing for.

i cant afford to break down infront of everyone
i dont want to find sympathy
but deep inside it really hurts.

i feel sad for people who do not treasure their stuff
and take things so lightly and for granted,
cause they don't know how tough their life can.
they haven't yet feel the bitter side of the world.

at this point of time,
i wish i can cry on my bestfriend's shoulder.
she have been the one who understand me very well.
and i really miss her now.

and for now,
i thank my bf, paka and seri
for at least lend me their ears.
and i somehow thankful that i have them.
at least they are there during my bad times.

i jusy miss my parents so so much now.
)':

sorry to waste few of your precious minutes reading my entry,
i know it's nothing exciting
but i just need to let it out.

and i dont mean to sound sympathetic,
AT ALL.

goodnight.