im your crave (:

updates! updates!

2009-10-27T09:49:00.003+08:00

do visit my onsugar.com if you still wanna read up on my daily rants,
www.mypinkpearls.onsguar.com
feel free to re-link. HEH (:

& do support my new online blogshop
www.thrift-clothings.blogspot.com

Thank You.

love,
ME (:

BLOGSHOP!

2009-07-16T18:30:00.004+08:00

MY BLOGSHOP IS UPDATED
PLEASE VISIT THEM AT :

www.thrift-clothings.blogspot.com

Thank You!

the vibe.

2009-07-15T00:03:00.003+08:00

i swear Blanket is the most cutest kid now,
besides Suri Cruise.
nyehehe ((:

and yes, it teared me a little when Paris made her speech the other day.
i miss Michael Jackson
and watching his concert and video clips make me think
that some people just don't appreciate him when he is still alive.
):

and erm, i'm thinking of blogging back
cause Onsugar getting bored now ( ok,not really )
but i seriously prefer tumblr than Onsugar.
LOL :D

the vibe to blog is coming back
and i miss blogging yaw.
i hope that will be a great news to my friends who keep asking me to blog back?
heeee (:

oh and yes,
12 more days for me to say GOODBYE to 18!
:D

till here folks,
goodnight.

on hiatus?

2009-07-08T02:26:00.000+08:00

i think i'll be back to blogging.
after quite some time now.

(:

new link.

2009-05-23T01:49:00.003+08:00

to make it easier for some people,
since i dont have a tagboard anymore
and wondering what is my new 'blog'

it is
www.colourfulpaintednails.onsugar.com

so if you hardworking enough,
just make some changes to your template if you want.
i will still be using this blog,fyi.

till here, FER

sentosaaaaa :D

2009-05-19T18:37:00.003+08:00

sentosa trip was super duper dope fun!
even though there's only two of us,
i always feel there's twenty of us
all because of that boy loud voice.

like always,
we talk and joke and laugh and make noise every one second.
haaaa, ok abit exagerating.
but really, wish to have more of that soon
ok love?

we never been this free before,
cause we will not be perfoming for momentum
so that explains why we got alot of time to spend together
and go here and there, do this and that.
:DD

i miss my dance mates though,
been ages since i last met them.
oh welllssss..

anyhoos, there's alot more pics of us at sentosa
there is totaly about 350 pictures of us?
hahaha :D
don't be suprised.
when two camwhore combine their forces, this is what happen.
from a full battery to a zero battery left in my hp.

and i cant be possibly upload all the pictures,
im not that hardworking.
trust me.

anyway, im gonna update my onlineshopblog soon.
REAL SOOOOON.
and i hope readers of my blog, do give some support aites.
(:

and yes,
i've moved to ONSUGAR.com
i'll be updating this blog, sometimes.
not as frequent as always (:

reason being: im bored of blogger.
so need to try something new you knowww.
:DD

and if you wanna link me, if lah
then can just ask me.
i give u the link.
alritey? (:

till here,
love ya'll.

Always, FER

move again.

2009-05-17T20:06:00.000+08:00

i'll be moving to
ON SUGAR.com!

love,fer
((:

weekends.

2009-05-15T21:55:00.001+08:00

sentose outing tomorrow !
excited much
:D

nuff said,
goodnight.

;Fer

ban mian ....

2009-05-10T18:19:00.004+08:00

hungry hungry hungry
im craving for ban mian tom yum seafood,
at banquet.

that bestfriend of mine refuse to accompany me.
i have no one else to accompany me to satisfy my cravings.
poor meee....

that ...... boyfy of mine is out with his family,
celebrating mother's day
enjoying his superbly dinner at some hotel
while im here home alone (ok not really my bro is sleeping),
feeling super hungry.

i wish that bestfriend of my will accompany me.
hahaha :D
why does she have to move to sembawang, its far from my place
):

love,
FER

Happy Mother's Day !

2009-05-10T14:21:00.002+08:00

Happy Mother's Day, Mama !
:'DD

Even though you're miles away,
just know that i think of you and papa every seconds
and i never stop missing both of you.

May you be bless with all happiness and good health
and stay beautiful like always.
You're the greatest mother in the whole wide world.

To all my Auntys and all Mothers,
Happy Mothers Day !
& hope you have a blissful mother day.

How i wish my parents is here,
so we can celebrate mother's day together.

Till here,
HAPPY MOTHERS DAY !

Love,
FER

UGG Boots!

2009-05-09T13:26:00.002+08:00

second post for the day,
god knows how i love shoess alott lott lottt.
but for now,something that attract me real bad is ankle boots.
and i happen to find this website which have ugg boots.

it's something that singaporean won't wear
but i love them.
ohh,how i wish im in some cold country and i can wear them.
heeee (:

go check the website out.
im sure you guys will like it too is you're a shoe lover.
teeheee (:

till here,
ohhhhh i wish i can have those shoesssss.

love,
FERRA

PP.

2009-05-09T13:09:00.003+08:00

this are the bouquet we made yesterday.
so anyone else interested?
you can mail me or dinie.
feel free to ask us questions and we try our best to suits your needs.
(:

as for today,
we planned to watch dvd together
but he was caught up with last min thing with his family
so here i am, at home blogging and watching dvd with paka.

thinking of going out,
but see how it goes later.
im so tired and resting at home will be a very good idea.
perhaps, causeway point?

anyhoos,
my project scope being accepted!
happy happy happy!
and boyfy's scope also accepted, that means we can start doing our project now.
phewwww, finallyy.

ahhh,ive yet to study for my science.
darnnn.

till here folks,
Happy Vesak Day!

love,
FERRA

ferrero.

2009-05-08T16:11:00.004+08:00

woodlands-pasir ris-woodlands.
just to get ready for a friend's ferrero order.
haha.

its partly my fault that i forgotten a friend of mine ordered ferrero bouquet
for mother's day.
and all the stuff is at boyfy's place,
so we have to travel back and forth just to get those stuff.

now at my crib.
gonna start doing it soon, enough.
heee (:

happy weekends lovelies,
hope to hang out at boyfy's crib tomorrow
(:

ps: i never stop you or him, remember you said
' i don't want to associate with losers like you all anymore '
that's what we are doing now, fulfilling your prayers
(:

love,
FERRA

yada.

2009-05-07T15:03:00.001+08:00

proper update,
SOOON.

VERY SOOOONNNNN !
:DDD

Happy 21st , darling.

2009-04-27T22:55:00.005+08:00

*` even if the stars are light years away from us,
you believe you can catch it for me *

after finished with meeting,
we went to causeway point
and dine in at pizza hut
yes,boyfy treat as usual (:

before that, he bought ticks for two
to watch 2 fast 2 furious 4.
the movie was awesome !

but yes, sound effect make me scared.
action,horror movies is just not my forte.
i prefer chic fliks, like duuhhh
heeee ((:

i had lotsa fun and i enjoy every single seconds spend with him.
thank you sexylovee.
i loveeee youuuu to bitsss and cruummmbsssss.

till here,
i dont want to wake up earlyy tmr.
grrr.

ps: sumpah i love you;
pps: i weared mooks dress today, finally (:
pps: SlA performance tmr, see you guys there.

lots of love,
Nurifa Elferra

it's hidden here,

2009-04-27T13:32:00.003+08:00

timecheck: 1.35pm
location: w24F, RP

ppt half done i think
didnt do much today,
lab session in the morning
not that exciting.

tskkk.

met up with my cousin ytd,
after sucha long time.
and sure we had fun laughing, the usual uss.
heee.

meeting with the dance mates later at e4
and probably walk around cwp with boyfy.
since its our dayy todayyy.

and yes, sorry darling
i forgotten
(:

HAPPY 21st MONTHSARY.
IS IT?
LOL :D

till here.

Love,
Nurifa Elferra

bowling session

2009-04-26T04:02:00.002+08:00

timecheck: 4.09am

pic was taken two hours ago,
while we at Yishun Safra with boyfy's family playing bowling
(:

i didnt play, just chat with his mom
and talk to his cousins.
then after two game, that boy wanna challenge me pool.
so we ended up playing four games, fun!
it's been so long since i last touch that thing.
heee (:

so today's saturday is like the normal saturday
where they will normally have bowling session with the other relatives/friends
and only sometimes i happen to follow them, like today.
* i won't be probably go his house every weekend right? *

so yes, thats all.
didnt take pic of what i wear today.
guess gonna hit the sack.

goodnight
and ohboy, i miss my boyfriend badly already.

Love
Nurifa Elferra

you got me hyped.

2009-04-24T23:27:00.005+08:00

what i wear today:
tie-dye dress from jakarta, unbranded cardigan, buckle bag from far east,
leopard print headband, flats from Mimosa, belt from Kl.

had lunch with amel, my all time favourite girl.
never fail to make me smile and laugh.
hope they all let you still be in dance aite darling
(:

met amel again together with boyfy after school,
ended up stuck in the canteen talking to the other dance mates.
eiih,ngak jadi ketemu ragu (:

then she head to meet her friend,
me and him went to lib to do rj and stuff.
we watched only half of the benjamin movie
and continue to finish the story at my house with bro&pak.

since i had a good time in school,
and i get to light up the damn thing ( haha )
im happy with today, though there's no dance.
sigh, i miss dancingg though.
so unfair )):

alrightey, till here then.
goodnight.

Love,
Nurifa Elferra

microcontroller system

2009-04-24T15:13:00.002+08:00

yay! im proud of myself.
finally after almost giving up, my microchip board get to light up
:DDD

nyehehehehe
((:

alrightey, blog more later.
boyf and i thinking of watching dvd in library later.

Love,
Nurifa Elferra

you ; love

2009-04-23T15:23:00.002+08:00

this is wat happen when faci talk too much
and drag 6p like hell.

thanks seri darling for accompany me.
haaaa.

now i seriously finish class at 3.45pm
wth !

-_-

goodbye.

stop contradicting yourself;

2009-04-23T14:45:00.003+08:00

reality check: i feel like it's better not coming to school :D

i know NUTSS about today's module.
but still, class as fun as always.
and faci superb.
nyhehehe (:

yay! 2.47pm
and im left with one more group and then 6p and then,
home sweet home.
((:

what should i do at home?
damnnn.
i feel like chilling at school.

till here.

timecheck: 2.49pm
location: w24F, RP
plug in to: sound of keypad

Love,
Nurifa Elferra

wednesday off.

2009-04-22T23:05:00.002+08:00

glad that i can have my rest today since no school on wednesdayyy
teeheee ((:

but then tmr, back to waking up earlyy.
bummeerrrrr
-__-

raaaah, blog more tommorrow.

love,
Nurifa Elferra

call me when you need me ;

2009-04-21T22:59:00.004+08:00

what i wear today ; a little bit of hip hop due to dance (:
rolling stone tee, unbranded sweat pants, nike high cut, indo bag, baby-g pink watch

today had dance, so after class went to studio
class ended slightly later due to the long 6p.
pheww, today's module is a killer.
ok not really.

at first my group have no idea what is it all about
until at the end of second meeting then we get to figure out what everything is all about.
trust me, today's module is confusing.

but it went smoothly,
so i do the ppt and not bad, we managed to answer most of the qns that were asked by our faci.
so yes, we understand on today's topic.
impressive :D
trust me, its super hard to understand...

so after class head to studio,
there was SLA preview
and im sort of looking forward to see them dance on the actual day.
teeeheee ((:

so here are the pictures of today,
heh (:

hahaha :D
boyfy forever with his 'acting cute' pose.

that's about it.
i dont feel like eating the chocolate that cost $0.60.
its too cute, can?!?!
nyehehe ((:

till here, sorry to bore you readers.

Love
Nurifa Elferra

knowing,

2009-04-20T22:08:00.002+08:00

what i wear today:
top pak bought from jakarta, unbranded jeans legging, flatz shoe from flatz, bag from indo, unbranded headband & necklace from diva.

ahh thats my boyfriend trying to pose like me.
-_-

so anyway, after school went to cwp to catch Knowing, Nicholas Cage.
it was entertaining but then it was kinda -_- in the middle of the show.

anyhoos, school was fun.
lame faci and funny classmates.
but the module is kinda tough in future to come, according to my faci.

heee, so thats all.
looking forward to tomorrow
cause im happy and so is boyfy.
you know i know we know what i mean kan ling-a-ling????
:DDDD

insyallah everything will go smoothly okkk sexylove.
dont worry.
you'll be fine ((:

ok goodnight, rj need to be done.
oh im in year 2 now, how fast is that
:P

hugs & kisses
Nurifa Elferra

boring sunday.

2009-04-19T15:46:00.004+08:00

today is the last day of holidays,
tmr will be back to the normal dayss.
class, uts, presentations, friends.

a part of me is enthusiatic,
sch reopen means get to learn my new modules, meet new friends
& get to dance again. haha

back to my normal school days routine,
my morning will be spent searching what clothes should i wear
and going school with bf ended up either him or both of us being late.
lol :D

hope nothing of that happen this year,
both of us promise to be a good boy/girl.
i so want him to graduate with flying colours ((:

i think i cant perform much this year
due to retaking my science o level.
ps: gerald, you better keep your words to teach me!
:DD

yes, told ya boring sunday.
im so dead bored now.
paka come home quick, pls.

ps: i feel awkward after so long not talking to them, i mean the 'barbies'.
seems we've gone so so far from each other now.

pps: honestly, i don't bear grudges at anyone AT ALL even if im a little angry at them before.
oh yes, i dont say im perfect and i know everything,
im saying based on what ive learnt and what i see.
i may be wrong be its just a statement, well thats what blogging all about Freedom Of Speech.

happy schooling people (:

lots of love,
Nurifa Elferra

Shopping & Haiqal's chalet

2009-04-19T01:11:00.004+08:00

what i wear today?
top from GEB, unbranded black panty hose, Far East Buckle Bag and shoe from Flatz.
(:

today had mini shopping with dearest Pak and Fanny ( pak's friend ),
we went to Jurong to find some stuff for their online shopping.
then head to Far East since Fanny wanted to find shoe.

ended up its not her who buy shoe. lol
pak bought one cute shoe from mimosa,
i bought one from idk-the-shop-name
haha,

its the ankle boot that ive beein dying to get and its the last piece !
omg.! dun bother to tell the whole story about it,
let just keep it btw me,boyfy,fanny and pak.
heee (:

then we wanted to find fanny's sch bag
but to no avail.
we went to bugis, and bought my Flatz shoe.
since i got blister wearing the shoe i weared earlier on, i changed to my new shoes.
hahaha
i loveee ittt sooooo efffingggg muuucccchhhh !!!
:DD

thanks girls for brighten up my day,
and accompany me to bugis just to buy that shoe
hahaha.

then around 6pm, head down to Pasir Ris.
nope, not to meet boyfy though i wish i meet him.
heee (:

met my w34k gangs!!!!
i misss them like crazy, and there's also Nina and Cas(if i spell their name correctly)
haz's cousin and fren.

they're nice people
sadly didnt get to meet my dearest fattyamndcutey gerald.
haha.
misss him lotsss tooo.
he's the one who die2 want me go, then end up he got work.
and come to the chalet idk wat time.
tskkk.
nvm, monday sch reopen!
im gonna hang out with them more often, i hope.
hee.

here's are the pics taken today.
not much,
and i dont have any from the chalets.
its with them, upload it once i get them ( hopefully )
:DD

Shopping Girls

I MET THE BOYFY WHILE I WAS AT THE CHALET,
HE CAME DOWN TO SEE ME AND WISH HAIQAL'S BIRTHDAY.
HAHAHA.
whats not, the chalet is at pasir ris and is a walking distant from his house

SO YEA, thats about it.
boring?
no not really, happy i got 2 shoes in one day.
hahahaha.

thanks boyfy for buying it for me.
you know i know we know what i mean.
nyehehehe.
love you to bits and pieces :DD

& & &

Happy Advance 18th Birthday Haiqal El Qatari !
:DDDD

thats all.
goodnight folks.

ps: i cant be bothered to give more comments about my tagboard.

xoxo
Nurifa Elferra

KL - JB - S'pore !

2009-04-18T01:31:00.002+08:00

blogger is being a bitch,
i cant seem to delete the extra pics.
lol :D

anyway, met boyfy at Jb , City Square just now
cause i was from Kl this morning.
then we had lunch at Vivo Pizza and we walked around to spent time together.
and yes, managed to get one top before went back to spore !
heee.

at first we thought we wil be late for Jam&Hop so decided not to go,
but end up still go cause i wanted to watch them perform so badly.
unfortunately, by the time we reached there they performed already
infact theirs is first item.
bummer, -_-

so we just chill with the others
and yea, had little fun
cause my stomach is looking forward to go home to my toilet!
hahaha :DD

so blablabla,
im happy get to meet dearest loverboy at Jb,
so called he fetch me luh.
teeeheee (:

and looking forward to tmr.
i wanna get the shoe ive been eyeing on.
:D

ps: i miss my parents, wish im with them now ):

till here, goodnight.

xoxo
Nurifa Elferra

dance?friends?class?

2009-04-16T01:14:00.004+08:00

misses, them all.

i seriously miss dancing, REALLY
looking forward to meet them, SOON
can't wait for dance classes, NEXT WEEK ! :D

oh, how i miss my friends (:

ps: school reopen in three days, excited much?
i am.

goodnight.

xoxo
ferra

dad?

2009-04-15T16:52:00.003+08:00

dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?
dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?
dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?
dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?dad?

please keep your promise,
im waiting.

urgh,how i hate to wait.
it makes me anxious.

xoxo
ferra

stussy day.

2009-04-14T00:02:00.002+08:00

stussy man oversize shirt, unbranded headscarf, gilligan & o'malley sleepwear dress
pardon the shoeless feet (:

i'm in a camwhore mood day,
& fourty two pictures taken.

xoxo
Ferra

mooks.

2009-04-13T02:26:00.003+08:00

cutesy topshop socks,
gorgeous mooks dress.
.
.
.
.
to be continue;

wish it didn't rain so i can add more to the list
more to come tomorrow, hopefully.
i still haven't get any shoes yet ; well, patience is a virtue.

oh,how i LOVE shopping
:D

xoxo
Ferra

pick your choice.

2009-04-12T03:08:00.002+08:00

a total knock-offf.
faints;

such a sexy little thangggg.
(:

dad agrees to bring me back to the shop just now,

hope to find something like the above
or at least ankle boots like i've been wanting too.
cause i somehow glance at one of them in that shop.
can't wait !!! :DDD

goodnight.

shoesshoeshoeshoeshoesshoeshoes.

2009-04-11T22:46:00.002+08:00

shoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoes
shoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoes
shoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoes
shoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoes
shoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoesshoes

oh god,
i love shoes!!!.

please let me have the one i saw an hour ago,
i wanna make that mine tmr.
or i'll be dissapointed.
):

Love,
FERRA

this or that ?

2009-04-11T00:13:00.002+08:00

i want this both,

pleaseeee prettyyy pleaseeeeee
..................

* hints the boyfriend *

xoxo
nurifa elferra

roomate

2009-04-10T17:43:00.003+08:00

classic pic.

didnt get to see her since she came back from her indo trip,
and can meet her only after next week.
i know you miss me.

i miss you too, smelly girl.

Love, FERRA

when there is someone call parents.

2009-04-08T22:03:00.002+08:00

having splendid time in kl.
and now just randomly chatting with my group of friends,
my-forever-kind dad apply internet specially for me ((:

i miss boyfy alot,
i miss my girls alot,
i miss dancing alot too,
& most suprisingly i miss singapore.
LOL

keep on visiting www.my-fashioncloset.blogspot.com

goodbye.

Love, FERRA

Engagement 2009.

2009-04-04T23:21:00.002+08:00

i'm too exhausted now to update a proper blog.
but thank god everything went smoothly for boyfy's sis engagement
(:

Congratulations kak Aylia & Abg Harith.
hope to get a wedding invitation in 2 years time,
insyallah :DD

and whats not, my perfume is getting a positive progress.
so i'm quite happy today.

boyfy is cute and handsome today.
haha.
sungguh tak perlu.

ok,dah.
bye and goodnight.

Love,FERRA

ONE DROP PERFUME !

2009-04-02T17:15:00.004+08:00

Anyone interested in One Drop Perfume,
inspired by Designer Brands for $40 per box?
each box contains 8 bottle and in one bottle can be use for more than 50 times.

For more information visit
( Click Here )

My fashion blog is up and running.
Hope you guys can give your support there.
If anyone of you interested, just email me
and i'll get back to you ASAP.
or can simply leave your comment at my tagboard.

Soon i'll release my first batch collection of clothes that i'm going to sell.
I've used it either once or NEVER before,
so do not worry about quality wise
cause i am sure it will be in tip top condition !
:DD

So wait and keep visiting my fashioncloset blog alritey?
(:

Love,
FERRA

incredible ride.

2009-03-31T20:46:00.002+08:00

*` no matter how hard i tried, it will be back to square one *

had mini ride on mum's car with boyfy
yes with mom consent of cause.
(:

we went over to ikea
to just take a walk and spend time together,dating.
and then we head to downtown east ( escape ) to check if it's open or not.
and yes, prolly going there tmr or thurs IF it's open.
since i got free tix from dearest Pak.
heeee.

and then thought of dropping by to bestfriend's house
but since mum said i have to reached home early
cause she need to use it,
so we head home.

it feels so good to meet him.
and i'm going Kl this weekend with mom.
hope he can follow, or whoever want to follow.
haha.
so i won't be bored there w/o frens.
sighhhh...

i seriously need to help boyfy's family already
before things get worst.
it make me feel sad to see him just now.
he's like so innocent and caught in between.
i'll help,no worries.
(:

and yes,
i got new vintage sort of skirt
thanks to Fanny, Pak's fren
and it is so adorable can?! :P
i LOIKE!!!

alright till here,
wanna have my late dinner.
haha.
i realised i havent been eating since morning.
-__-

ok,bye.

Love, FERRA

watever.

2009-03-30T13:13:00.004+08:00

i just want to get rid of previous post,
and though i got nothing to post about.
i'm glad i did this.

and yes im feeling, NUMB.

ok,goodbye.

sweet treats.

2009-03-29T04:23:00.003+08:00

*` there is nothing i can possibly compare you to;
even when there is lightning you will be there for me *

woah!
so much for blogging nowadays.

just a few seconds ago,
i realised today is 29th March.

which means 27th march is two days ago,
and i swear i only remember my bestfriend's bday
i didnt even realised our monthsary falls on the same date.

booohooohoo!

and now, i have a hard time.
i don't even remember how long we've been together.
omggg.

i'm sucha loser.
haha :D

woah! unbelievable.
and yes, not the first time i forget though.
lol :DD

i was with him on 27th,
busy dancing at RP,TRCC.

but still on that day,
i remembered very well
we HAD LOTSA FUN!

teeeheeheee (:

so got nothing to regret or loose,
but still i love him much.

till here ( it's 4.32am already )

goodnight,
or goodmorning?
watever.

ps: he's down with high fever, sighh.

Love, FERRA

Earth Hour.

2009-03-28T23:10:00.003+08:00

8.30 pm - 9.30 pm
Earth Hour.

anyone even bother to turn off the lights?
haha.

guess,my house did participate in Earth Hour
simply cause, me and paka went over to my auntie's new house.
and our home is in Total Darkness when we reached home at 11 pm!

too much for Earth Hour huh?
we actually contributed extra hour for it,
semangat.

nyehehe
((:

Love,FERRA

funny and cutesy.

2009-03-28T02:56:00.000+08:00

i hope this make your day
(:

goodnight lovelies.

Love, FERRA
(:

Happy 19th Birthday; Bestfriend

2009-03-27T00:28:00.002+08:00

*` you're my bestfriend & my everything in this whole wide world *

Happy 19th Birthday, Nur Farain bte Ismail
:D

you know

i love you ever since we're fourteen,
i love sleeping over your house every time,
i love talking to you at night about our future,
i love gossiping with you about our other friends,
i love crying with you while watching Hindi movies.

whatever it is,
i love you with all my heart
and
you can never be replace no matter what.

I love you alot,
and i've got something for you
from me and Dinie.

see you when i see you,
and i know im not the first one to wish you.
but still,

Happy 19th Birthday, Miss POSH !

:DDDD

Love,
FERRA or your (IFA)
:D

your sweet candy;

2009-03-26T19:34:00.002+08:00

*` let yourself loose cause that will make you very euphoric *

i'm happy,
as long as you're happy.

and you know,
i'm sincere.

friends, family & lover,
i'll always have your back.

in good or bad times,
cause i love you so.

till the next post
(:

Love, FERRA

morning rush;

2009-03-26T09:28:00.003+08:00

you make my day,
everytime

even if you think you fail.

(:

the most glamourous princess i've ever seen,
and that is you Cempaka Ayu Rizkiani !

THIS IS SO WOW !

:DD

susah,seneng semuanya aku jalanin - Jani

i still think Tentang Dia is the best
& Ada Apa Dengan Cinta is the bestest.

Work Interview Later,
and
Lack Of Sleep Now!

DOOOM
-_-

Love, FERRA

terlanjur cinta.

2009-03-24T01:58:00.002+08:00

you know i love you,
very much.

and i don't wanna care about others,
anymore.

Love, Ferra

thank you eera (:

2009-03-23T01:22:00.001+08:00

got this from darling eera's blog.

haha

i didnt realised i have this picture until i saw it just one minute ago.

OMGGGG!!!

this is sooooo ...

yuuuckkk.

LOL :D

ok, goodnight!

thursday picnic.

2009-03-23T00:38:00.003+08:00

*` it's rare to have days like this now,

and i'm grateful to have spent that one day with you *

i am not very sure if this is gonna be a proper update,

but im very sure that my blog is rotting.

haha,

so before it actually rot i shall post about our thursday picnic.

we had mini picnic at Pasir Ris Park,

with simple food and just chill.

it's been a long time since we really chill.

lol ;D

and yes, thats about it.

more pics will be uploaded at facebook,

if im hardworking enough.

heeee ((:

alright till here,

need to continue working on my online shopping

i hope it's gonna be up and running soon.

heee.

and hope ya'll give me your sincere support.

goodnight

and yes, glad to meet him all dark now,

because of pulau bukom.

haha :D

Love, FERRA

your beloved .....

2009-03-19T18:36:00.004+08:00

day after days,
im beginning to dislike them.

it will be unfair if i were to get mad at you
cause it's totally not your fault
but because she is being very fussy and irritating,
it irritates the hell out of me.

and if ever something happen in the future,
i don't give a damn who they are and whatsoever
but if she is really getting on my nerve,
then screw her.

i hate to entertain this kind of people.
and because she is someone you respect,
i keep myself low.
cause i know i'll hurt you if i say nasty stuff about her.

if this is the problem, then might as well ask her to stop pretending.
i don't like to associates with hypocrite.
even is she is someone very close to you.

and im sad and pissed and irritated and angry and i feel like crying now.
my mother is better than anyone else.

stop treating him like as though he's twelve,
and for goodness sake he's a GUY!
i suggest it's better for you to concentrate on your girl more
-__-

you're right on my door to save me.

2009-03-15T22:57:00.002+08:00

i miss you every single seconds,
i miss having fun with my bestfriend,
i miss going out with my girlfriends,
but i miss the feeling of today the most, one word to describe today is Euphoric.

finally meet my dearest boyfriend after five days?
haha :D
so glad to meet him, it felt like ages since we had a good laughter.
and today can be describe as blessings in disguise.
heee (:

was kinds cranky for the past few days
plus the feeling of getting fever is so not nice.
like usual, cold in the inside hot on the outside.

met him at Bugis and we do some shopping together.
it's been ages since i pamper myself with shopping
and going out with him, i mean really go out and shop and talk and eat and joke.

so i spent quite alot today though,
hurr.
and i so want the shoe and beanie that we saw.
and he said he will get it for meee.
nyehehe.
hopefully i get them, those sexaye stuffs.
((:

boyfy bought for himself a shoe,
im sure can fit him perfectly :P
other than that, i love what i have bought today
and cannot wait to wear them (:

sch reopen, means more clothes!
yay-nesss !
:D

and i'm a happy girl,
today is almost close to perfect
thank you muhd dinie faris (:

im grateful to have a bf whom i can trust
and is there for me be it when im sad or happy.
and accept me for who i really am.

and had a good talk too with him,
and idk how to describe the feeling that i had ytd
but he somehow make me feel better.

and yep, there's tones of pics!
haha
stupid faces of us,
heeee.

and before heading home
we went to his aunt's home at wdlds for snack
and collect his pay.

and currently at my aunty's crib
gonna babysit my darling cutey pie, qidah
and prolly bringing her along tmr to collect my laptop.
thanks boyfy for willingly accompany me tmr
(:

thats all folks,
nothing much
but i swear today is the most wonderful day i had compared to the other wonderful days.
till here, Goodnight.

Love, FERRA
((((:

friend or foe?

2009-03-14T15:50:00.005+08:00

count yourself lucky cause you're not in my shoes,
if you do then tell me how do you feel
cause i believe in karma.

the feeling of being stab in the back,
is so so so painful.
putting salt on your ulser is less painful i supposed.
and i wish you do this instead of that.

well, i guess it's hard right to be honest,
at least for once.

so much for being friends.
or should i say close friends.

but wells, things happened
people change
yada yada yada.

and hence, i couldn't be bothered anymore.
but then, don't come finding when you're in need.

cause all this while, i've been sincere.
but still people chose to take things for granted
and i wish you could be honest with me, cause that will be less heartbreaking.

i ain't saying i'm perfect
at least spare a thought for what i would feel,
but i think that is hard too.

wells, people change.

yes,im being sensitive
cause i trust you
and this is so unfair.

goodbye.

DANCEWORKS' 09 !

2009-03-07T22:40:00.002+08:00

*` my first ever competition and im feeling hyped and never wanna stop grooving *

weeee!!!!! :DDD
DANCEWORKS IS OVERRRR!!!!
YEAH BAYBEH!!!!
OMGGGGG THIS IS THE TIME IVE BEEN WAITING FORRR!
:DD

though i will miss the everyday's practices
but still, i had fun during the practices and on the actual day itself.
ok mayb i screwed up abit, but oh wellls.
i dun care, and i had FUN!!!
wooohhoooo!!!

boyfy was there to accompany me since morning,
and yes thanks alot dear for following me
and w/o u i think i'll get nervous-breakdown.
haha.

and the crowd was mind-blowing.
though there's some exceptional part
EHEM-EHEM
( you and i know la ok love :PPP )

mayb we didnt win or get into finals,
but heck.
we all had fun and thats the most important things.
and guess wat, out tshirt design get into top 8.
that is an achievement as well.

Busta Groovaz, you all had put up your 100% there,
and dont feel bad
cause each and everyone of you have make the others proud
and we all were super hyped , so nothing matters more
((:
i love you all, ya holla ! ( ZW fav quote )

pics will be uploaded soon ennough,
when i get them all.
heee (:
for now just this some random pic boyfy took of me out of randomness
with all the funny facesss.
hahaha XD

and now, i gotta concentrate on my dance exam will be in 3 weeks time i guess?
oh yes, say boyfy choreo.
he's super duper dope can?!!!
hahaha.
i love youu alot love.

and yes, to whoever it may concern
the seniors all,
thanks for your encouragement and support and helpp.
truly appreciated ((:

till here then, update more sooon.

Love, FERRA
(:

in the morning.

2009-03-07T08:38:00.004+08:00

*` plus zhiwen, cheryl, aini, aminah & natashah we'be been through alot and today is the day to prove them all what we've got *

so the day have arrived.

( cheng cheng cheng ! )

now is early as 8.42am.

haha.

i had the most sleepless night yesterday.

i just can't get myself to sleep

and that explains the early waking up.

and i hope noone is late though,

specially dearest aminah.

heee (:

i hope they;re as excited like me.

haha.

cause i am excited

and hope we put up a good performance there, later.

though there's internal conflicts between us,

i hope everything go smoothly today

and everyone forget about it and just have funn like we always do

:DD

and i thank those who have helped us with danceworks and everything

be it, just by commenting (though people say talk is cheap) but it's better than just showing us your pathetic face and become a loser like you are already now.

:PP

yes, those who wanna come down and watch

it is outside Plaza Singapura, Dhoby Ghaut

start at 3pm, i think?

or 3.30pm.

somewhere there.

lol.

so yes, seee you all soon.

and to my Busta Groovaz!

i love you all ((:

let's just give it all out and have fun on the stage.

and if they think we suck,

well at leas, we did try our best out there

Love, Ferra

trust me, and you'll save.

2009-03-06T00:28:00.002+08:00

*` if i were given a chance, i would want us to be like last time *

dance have been taking up my time for the past few days.
almost everyday i went out for practices to School.
and for two days have been having runs and runs and runs non-stop.
and yes, we're all are tired.

but well, since now its 12.30pm
so left one more day for Danceworks!
woohooo :D
i cannot wait, i so wanna get over this already.
hahaha XD

tomorrow will be having another last min prac
and most probably will end earlier
and urgh, i so don't like spending time make-up and all.
hahah :P

so danceworks! will be held outside plaza sing.
and if i'm not wrong it will start at either 3 or 3:30,
something like that.

alrite, sidetrack abit.

i'm feeling abit uneasy about us nowadays.
everything dont seem right.
and the thing is that,
i dun see him like how i see him last time.
get wat i mean?
no?
forget it.

alrite, should end it here already.
im tired
and before that boy show more attitude i better entertain him.

goodnight.

Love, Ferra

dance exam.

2009-02-28T22:01:00.002+08:00

new haircut,
and can't wait to get on my toe.
my hair is lighter and i just feel happy
:D

approximately four weeks or less to my dance exam,
and i still have not really decided on what song to be use.
and what's more have to choreo on our own.
im so screwedd -_-

one more week to danceworks
and the acting part is still not done,
i also havent decided on what costume should i wear.
im so doomed.

and yes, bought new sandals for me just now at Far East
can't wait to use them...
( so tak perlu eh )

ok that is all.
haha :D
i really have no idea what to blog.
and boyfy's out with his family for bowling AGAIN.
fanatic gilerrrr :PP

alright, gonna dance now.

Love, FERRA
(:

you know i love you so.

2009-02-28T01:00:00.003+08:00

everyday is special,
and even if i forget today is our special date
that doesn't mean my love for you have reduce.
you know, you're the one whom i can rely on through bad and happy days
((:

today or was it yesterday
27th February 2009, was our 19th Monthsary.
and well,
HAPPY 19TH MONTHSARY DINIE FARIS.
:D

i hope this relationship can last long,
cause i know and you know and he know
we love each other dearly.
and this relationship is very sincere.
i hope you had fun with me and them just now
((:

i almost forget about it today,
cause i really don't be bothered about the date
cause all i know i have to go dance and do the daily norm.

and i only realised when one of my crew mate, Hakim
asked me what's today date.
so i looked at my watch
and i can say sardine-ly that it's 27th.

then i give him a second look and say OMG! ITS 27TH!
hahaha :D
i am so busy with danceworks that i actually forget about it.
and i think love is waiting for me to sms him first.
-_-

and we had pastamania for dinner,
i let him tried apple crumble pizza
which paka introduced me too
and he love it so much as i do.
((:

and he planned to buy brownie but since the sch's cafe has closed
we went to cwp to grab donut
but end up we ate pastamania.
i hope i have made his day
:P

and guess what,
someone threatened to bash me up.
he/she tagged at dinie's blog.
tskkk.

i can easily make a report if i want too
so at the same time i can know who is that pathetic person
and what he/she really wants from us.
like as if we care if he/she hates us or especially me.
-_-

and before farah went off she said this 'update me if budak kampong tu tag again'
whenever this cousin of mine talk,
she will just say anything that can hurt people
but i guess, that FAKE FERRA is really a typical budak kampong.
and yesterday like yaya papaya say want to bash me up,
now like some scary cat say he/she said he/she childish la wat la.
BIG LOSERRR.

and i have a high feeling that it is a girl.
oh wells.
i don't know..
whoever he/she is, at least i got a life by not stalking/spamming others.

alright till here then,
prolly going out with mom tomorrow.
goodnight.

Love, Ferra
(:

birthday bash.

2009-02-26T20:10:00.004+08:00

*` spending time with loved ones make my life a little easier *

yesterday attended zee's chalet at costa sands.
it was ok despite there's something happened there
which i shall not mention here
and yes,
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY ZEE ! :D

hope your wishes all come true,
and may you succeed in your future endeavors.
and don't sad2 ok?
(:

dance practices have been taking up a lot of my time lately,
and yes danceworks is just next week!
omgaaawwwdddd !!!
i'm pretty excited and worried though.
hurrhurr.

mom's here,
for few days i think
and she and my aunt will go back to Kl back.
and mayb after danceworks im goin there too.
i'll be bored thenn... sighhh..

anyway, i havent been sleeping yet since ytd's chalet.
ok, mayb about one or two hours
but still it's not enough,
and im gonna sleep like crazy tonight.
heee ((:

ahh, im not sure wat happened to boyfy's lappy.
im scared his lappy crash due to idk wat.
sighhh.

and yes the other day we nearly give away roxy to pet shop,
but tk menjadi.
like abit sad and scared we will miss her.
though i never touch her before, -_-
hahaha :DD

alright till here,
gotta hit the sack
i need some sleep badly.
and tomorrow will be another busy day.
heee ((:

goodnight.

Love, Ferra

i don't need someone like them,do i?

2009-02-23T23:52:00.005+08:00

*` to be honest i do love them, but now i realized i don't really need them anymore *

do i sound emo?
haha :D
fret not.

im super tired and exhausted
and more importantly, im super STRESS.
not only dancework to think off,
i need to think about studies and financially and home
and there is just a lot for me to do.

everytime reach home from dance, work or anywhere
the house will in a very big mess.
that can lead me to being stress.

during practices, by repeating the steps all over again
can lead to another stress.

while checking the letterbox
and see many many letter from government,
can lead to more stress.

and today,
i just get to know i have to repeat one more module
and i have yet to retake my O'lvl science
and this is another BIGGER problem that leads to MORE stress

by thinking of how i have to settle every of my problems my own
is very stressful.
i wish to have more people that i can rely on.
someone who is sincere and trustworthy.

if you think not getting enough allowance from your parents is stressful,
wait till you be in my position.

i'll get scolded with brothers for not cleaning up the house,
i have to work for myself to get what i wanted but with what im earning now ,
i dont think i can even afford a shoe that i've been eyeing for.

i cant afford to break down infront of everyone
i dont want to find sympathy
but deep inside it really hurts.

i feel sad for people who do not treasure their stuff
and take things so lightly and for granted,
cause they don't know how tough their life can.
they haven't yet feel the bitter side of the world.

at this point of time,
i wish i can cry on my bestfriend's shoulder.
she have been the one who understand me very well.
and i really miss her now.

and for now,
i thank my bf, paka and seri
for at least lend me their ears.
and i somehow thankful that i have them.
at least they are there during my bad times.

i jusy miss my parents so so much now.
)':

sorry to waste few of your precious minutes reading my entry,
i know it's nothing exciting
but i just need to let it out.

and i dont mean to sound sympathetic,
AT ALL.

goodnight.

pretty boy.

2009-02-22T21:51:00.002+08:00

*` this pretty boy can make me happy, sad, excited, hype and everything
but at the end of the day, he still love me very dearly *

have been spending time with my sexy love for three days straight.
yes, this is to make up for about a week we have not meet during mine and his busy days.
so we took this weekend to spent time with each other.
although ytd's outing was only a while but i still had fun.
we went bowling with his family and reached home around 3am.

just now went to yishun to survey pet store to send away my four hamsters.
if anyone wants, im selling it at $5.
they are only 2 months old.
if there is no one, i'll probably will be giving them away at pet store within this few days.

spending time with him was marvellous.
we had so much fun talking and walking aimlessly like how we always do.
and we also planned to watch the bloody valentines 3D.
heee ((:
and whatsnot, we sorta having fun laughing at the FAKE FERRA
who spammed my boyfy's tagboard.

people nowadays prefer to do the unproductive things.
and they got time to even spam people's blog and leave hate-tags
like as if we care like that.
and the most funny part, he/she tagged him at the time while we're still in the MRT otw home.
tskkk -_-
stupid stupid stupid.

anyway, there will be dance prac tomorrow.
i hope everyone won;t be late cause they know we dont have much time
but people still take their own time.
pffft. it irritates me sometimes.

till here then,
goodnight readers.

Love, FERRA

you, my superhero.

2009-02-21T01:32:00.003+08:00

19th June 2006 !
gambar classic mautnye...

21st February 2009

*` i will never let you go and i believe we can make this relationship happen *

today is my off day.
and so i followed the other dance mates finding costumes
but end up me and boyfy go separate ways cause we spent too much time at Far East eating and finding costume while they all at Bugis already.

and since it have been days since i last met him,
so it is sort of a date for us too.
cause tmr and sunday i will be working
and next week will be another busy week, so not sure when will i meet him again.
so im taking this time to spent quality time with him,
since i have spent alot of my time with the dance mates during practices almost everyday.

but overall, i had fun
cause at least i meet the lovelies
and also my boyfriend.
but the sad thing, i still cannot find any pink sweat/cargo pants.
hmphhh!
very the leceh.
hahaha :D

anyhoos, boyfy's old motorola hp
the one that he brought when we went Downtown East
it was 2006 then,
the first time we went out together beside meeting at Ophir which was on 2004
that classic phone still can be used!
hahaha, suprisingly.

and so i found that photo above,
i know we look like ....
just don't mention it
but it's memorable
those were the times when we were still in secondary school
and i still remember the conversation we had with each other.

me: eh next time if want to meet how eh? i stay woodlands, you stay pasir ris.
him: yah eh, how ah? woodlands very far.
me: pasir ris more far. fair we meet in the middle.

hahaha :D
so next meet up was at Bugis.
go study with his bestfriend, farhan and his ex, Ainul.
well, those memories still linger on my mind.
and im thankful that, even when there's a very hard catastrophe
we still have each other to depend on.

and yes, i really had fun today
and wish more of todays will come in near future.
insyallah...
and wish i can follow him for bowling with his family tmr,
but sadly... workkkk...
sighhhh.

alright till here then,
goodnight readers.

Love, Ferra
(:

dance, love.

2009-02-19T00:08:00.002+08:00

*` if that's painful, remembering your past is even painful *

i just got to find out something
and yes, that something is somewhat i've felt before
and didn't wish for it to happen.
but since now, it's happening
i let everything fall into its own places.

i won't force neither will i stop.
if it is meant to be like this,
well be it and i don't wanna think about it.

anyhoos, dance come work is super tiring.
the girls always say to me i look really tired,
yes i am.
indeed very tired.
i shouldn't whine cause there's others who are tired also.

end of this month will be my last day of work.
wth!
hahaha.
i wanna find some other work place which offer higher pay
maybe i'll be more enthu to work like how Paka said.

ah wells, i guess i have to hit the sack now.
tomorrow work at 9am continue with dance till 9pm!
atleast better than working from 9am-9pm!
hahaha :D

alright, goodnight lovers.

Love, Ferra

you, kid.

2009-02-17T23:11:00.002+08:00

*` everyone still have a kid in them and i bet you're not that mature enough like how you claimed you were *

today larry's lesson was abit wasted for me.
i think i've wasted my time, cause i didnt do anything much.
the class was fun like always,
but im not doing my part cause i was almost half-dead.
im super tired
and many many things lingering on my mind.
so i can't really concentrate that well during class.

tomorrow will be another dancework practice
and work will be in the morning again.
urghh, i think i need to quit this job so that i can concentrate on dancework
and at least i won't be tired for work or practices.

i miss my parents badly...
when i went home just now,
no more mom asking me to clean up my stuff and everything
and my house is in deep mess.

kitchen is in deep mess.
clothes not wash.
sighh, i wish mom will come backk here..
so i won't feel lonely.
at least, not when watching cinta fitri.
):

aite, till here people.
goodnight.

Love, Ferra

i'll miss you, mom & dad.

2009-02-16T22:06:00.005+08:00

*` the love i get since young is different from the love you showered me with now *

parents left this house, country about one hour ago.
seriously, i miss them already ):
i havent had enough of them yet, i want them here again like how we used to previous years.
i want their presence.
i miss them real badly now, i feel like follow them to Kl.

but i can't.
cause i got other commitments
such as work, dance and school.
sighh..

tomorrow will be back to cooking maggie.
no more mama's food, no more commenting about sinetron cinta fitri 3 with mama.
and there will be no more dad to ask me to find for him dvds so he can watch it at night.
grrrr ://

i dont know why i feel very sad now.
the house is so quiet now.
i rather listen to mom's talking abt BGR and nag abit about don't come home late blablabla
rather than having a very quiet house, it doesn't feel good.

and at night, i will be hiding under my blanket again
cause i'm scared if i ever see anything in the darkness.
at least if there is her, there will be someone for me to hug too
and i never feel scared to sleep without even using blanket.

and yes, i havent had a good long chat with dad.
i regret going dance just now.
at least i can spent more time with him...
))':
sighhh.
i wanna follow them to Kl ....

now they're otw there already,
hope they have a safe journey and reach there safely.

and yes, i don't feel like goin work again
or should i say i don't want to work?
it's tiring and just exhausting.
waking up early and blablabla.

and dance so far is ok for me.
i need to buck up alot and yes, more things need to be done.

on valentines day, i finished work at 2pm.
and after that head home.
last minute boyfy asked me out around 6pm plus.
so we went out, mom let us use the car
so we went to ECP to just walk and talk.
and order Mcd Drive through.
and yes, it was just a simple date.
and no balloon no nothing but just sincereity.
(:

and yes on Sunday,
my beloved bro the first one
got Gold Medal for the Sea games selection competition.
almost the entire big family of mine was there to watched and witnessed it.
so by end of this month he will be going to Hong Kong to represent Spore
and insyallah, if he win again he get to go Vietnam for SEA Game 09!
:DDD

i'm so proud and happy for him
and finally his dreams come through.
and so everyone is happy for him and wish him all the best
(:
i hope nobody or nothing will stop him from fulfilling his dreams.

so yes, that's about it.
i'm kinda tired to blog these few days.
its just so tiring.

and yes, I MISS MY PARENTSS.
I WANT THEM HERE
I WANT THEM BACK
I JUST WANT THEM AND NOTHING ELSE !!!
:'(((((((

goodnight.

Love, Ferra

i wish i'm perfect.

2009-02-13T22:50:00.006+08:00

*` if only we have this, i would want the two of us to go far away from here and live happily *

just awhile ago boyfy was here, right by my side.
just awhile ago he was here to help me do hamster's house.
just awhile ago he was here to accompany me to CWP.
just while ago we had a big argument which lead to a fight which lead to tears which lead to laughter.
just awhile ago i feel like i'm nothing but a burden to him.
just awhile ago i hurt him badly that he teared.
just awhile ago i nearly say things that i should n't even think and say at all.
just awhile ago i thought asking him over is really not a good idea at all.

and now, i know i sucks real bad.

i wish all these never happened if it wasn't for my stupidity and selfishness.
i wish that i could turn back time.
i wishhh...
sighhh...

it hurts me badly to hear all those words coming out from his mouth.
well i guess, since he know me better
i'm sure he mean what he have said.
and it hurts real bad...

ohh, this just sucks.
today is my BAD day.

and i just hate today.
Friday, 13th February 2009 !
ahhh, Friday the 13th!
WHAT THE HELL !!!
-_-
no wonder...

i'm gonna sleep now.
goodnight.

Love, Ferra

all drained out.

2009-02-12T22:50:00.003+08:00

im tired and freaking exhausted!.
im so drained out of energy
and i haven't been resting well.
i haven't have ample sleep and now im whining.

im whining cause im working very hard for myself.
to earn something for myself,
i have to sacrifice all the time i have.
sighhh..

and i feel weak now.
very weak.

tmr off but still got dance.
hectic.

i wanna watch movie.
and i wanna sleep like nobody business
and i just wanna rest like there's no tomorrow.
body aching badly.

and yes, dance just now was rather fine.
and tomorrow dance will be at 11?!!
freaking 11 am?!?!

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goodnight fellas.

bruises all over.

2009-02-11T23:50:00.003+08:00

*` my eyes and heart is not as blind as yours *

woke up with bruises and body aching
due to ytd's bboy lesson.
it was hard to even bend when i was at work to do my job.
and it was harder to even laugh with the colleague, cause my stomach seem to contract real bad.
so there it goes, to make myself better (:

work was ok,
somehow today feel like time passed by quickly
and ended up i have to work alone with my manager at night.
the rest of them went home,
and first time i did closing and all
and i guess it wasn't that bad at all.

and tomorrow will be working morning again,
and dance will be after that.
i think this week i haven't have my rest yet.
saded.

anyway, im kinda disgusted with some people
and since i still respect them so i guess i will never put anyone's name here
and it is safer to tell all this to my boyfy cause he is the only one that can be trusted.
cause like you know, people like to spit unnecessary things just like that.
so i guess, i wont say why i'm disgusted with them.

and yes, i see hypocrisy almost everywhere.
be it from the closest people to me or just some other random people.
but well, nobody is perfect...

on the brighter note,
almost everyone i know is ecstatic about Valentines Day
and gifts have been ready and surprises have been made
even some people would go all out just for this day.
and they would spent like a lot for their loved ones.
i'm happy for them who are excited for that day to come, and i hope everything went smoothly for them :P

whereas, when people ask what have i buy and everything,
i'll say Nothing.
cause every time with him is special to me
i'm not expecting or asking anything anyway,
so when the day comes ( well, im working also )
i guess meeting him will be the best of everything.
cause what we had all this time is nothing but just sincerity.
so neither me or him is asking anything but a long lasting relationship, amin.
(:

oh but i hope he buy me the teddy bear that cost 750 coins at Pet Society !
hahaha :D
the bear is SUPER DUPER CUTE CAN?!
i so gonna get the teddy bear at pet society for my darling Tiadorey!
:DDD

alright till here i shall end the post.

ps: thanks to Rose and Pak for giving some comments (:

Goodnight lovelies.

Love, Ferra
(:

who's he?

2009-02-10T23:55:00.005+08:00

*` with your boyfriend you can talk and do anything under the sun *

today i did quite alot,
or should i say i achieved quite many things too during dance practice.
finally, i get to overcome my fear
and yes i won't stop trying.
heee :D

but yes with good achievement
comes with hardwork
and thanks alot, my body is filled with bruises now.
-_-

anyhoos, actually i wanna thank boyfy for spending time with me.
today i laughed alot and everything
like for once, i totally enjoyed today's lesson
not that i didnt for the others but just today is much more cheerful practice for me.
very hyperactive...
haha :P

and yes, friends around me also help to brighten up the day
after suffering from bad leg aching
due to work.
and though the run was hectic, but still i enjoyed.
:DD

oh and me and boyfy had a long talk
we talk non stop about many issues
be it about the ig, personal and everything.
and it is just not enough.
well he agreed (:

there is just too many things to say
and what's best is that he understand me better
well, besides my dad
and he is just very trustworthy to talk about all this kind of things.
it goes like, i can talk to him anything under the sun !

and yes, i think the talk is so gonna be continued.
well, i hope.

now i'm whining real bad.
body aching, there's work tomorrow and DANCE !!!
dance at 9am !!!!
-__-
well, i hope everyone can make it on time.
and please make sure and don't be NATO.

i think i couldnt think of anything else to say,
i need to get my beauty sleep cause tmr i will be 'WORKING 12 HOURS!'
-_-

waking up at 8 again?
tskk.
so much for having holidayssss...

alright, till here.
goodnight.

ps: Do people always say GROW UP to others whenever they're not happy with what other's blog?

pps: when people blog, means they are either experiencing it or they witness it, so why must other being such a 'SWEETHEART' BUSY BODY comment on others and say things like, ' you dont even know the real life'. so if you, know thats your problem. DO I LOOK LIKE I CARE? and remember, no one also ask.

pps: REMEMBER, THIS IS MY BLOG. so i say what i like to say and if you're not happy then leave, LOSER.

Love, FERRA

:DD

is your heart really pure and sincere?

2009-02-10T00:13:00.005+08:00

*` is it easy to walk out of someone's life and now crawling to them to fulfill your own intentions*

i think there is a lot of people who are making use of others to get what they want
to fulfill their needs,
but in the end they only give false hope and toy around with others feelings.

be it between people whom they call ' friends' or 'lovers'.
i bet everyone of you have fall in love before.
but how do you feel if that person you love dumb you,
and then they come back to you just to fulfill their needs
but in the end, they mean nothing.
Z.E.R.O. !

to us who actually witness it, we know that it is wrong
but why can't we do our part and tell them
what is wrong and what is right?

isn't it pitiful to just toy around with others feeling.
they will surely feel cheated, IF THEY KNOW.
but some people just could n't realized their mistakes.
or some they know, but they act sotong just because they love that someone dearly.

i feel it's very unfair.
so what if you got reputation?
so what if you got looks?
but if your heart is as dirty as trash, there's no meaning to all the beautiful things you have.

cause sooner or later when people know the real truth about you,
they will just hate you
and that's when you will commit another mistakes.

its like repeating your filthy attitude at others
so its like, change of victim.
get what i mean?

i saw this alot,
and it is still happening.
i hope retribution will get back to them soon.

in this point of time,
is there really people with true heart and feelings?
i know there is, but very RARE!

i really wonder,
what's the point of thinking you're so pretty and charming and whatsoever
when at the end of the day,
all you do is ditch people.

you're just taking things for granted
and making other people suffer
cause of your nuisance act.
how pathetic can your life be.

i wish someday,
all this things could stop
but i doubt so ....

till here,
and no offense to whoever get offended.
maybe you're acting like one too (:

i wonder how cheap can you be...

Love, Ferra

quit whining?

2009-02-09T00:49:00.003+08:00

i just cannot quit whining,
and i know it's bad for health.
but i hope there will someday, whenever
i get what i wanted and then i think i'll stop.

but for now,
i need to prepare for work tomorrow
and there will be dance practice at Oschool conducted by Gin.
and yes, thanks Gin for the help
i think we really need it (:

anyhoos, today didn't went to work cause 'sick'
mom asked me out to aunty's crib
but end up tak menjadi,
so i just wasted my few dollars of not working.
lol :D

i'm planning to buy new shoes soon,
insyallah (:

and yes, i'm gonna make up to today's loss.
i hope i'm able to sustain it.
and yes, 9am tomorrow.
hoping to finish at 2pm so i can meet darling Aminah and Amirah.

alrite, till here then.

ps: im craving for turkey bacon at burger king and ...

cannot remeber what i want to say already,
gonna hit the sack now.

oh yah, remember now: i've changed my number! so ask me personally ok?

Goodnight.

Love, FERRA

off day.

2009-02-07T13:45:00.002+08:00

today is off day.
and i don't think i'm going anywhere.
too tired to even bath :P
tomorrow will start work at 2pm till 9pm.

and my colleagues so far are ok.
quite nice people
and yes, i'm the oldest one there.
well, besides the manager.
-_-

ok, im bored.
and i got nothing to blog.
sorry to waste your time.

till here.

Love, FERRA
(:

first day of work.

2009-02-05T23:10:00.004+08:00

*` i wish you're happy with the life you're living in now *

work was tiring.
climbing up and down the stairs mean burning fats.
and sweating mean loosing kilos.
if i were to said i dont' like, it would be lying.
but going to work and tired myself is irritating,
i hate to tired myself cause i will always feel tired.
hah, ok contradicting.

dance was ok,
learnt new choreo and
thank god i can catch up or
else i'll be dissapointed.
lol :D

i just realised dancework is four weeks from now,
woah! that is quite fast, you know.
im excited and worried at the same time.

ah and and, mom's cooking have been great.
i mean, it feels good to have mom's cooking
every time you go home after you're tired like crazy.
haha
ahh wells, i miss mom's cooking so so much.
feel good to have her here, but he's going back Kl next week.
saded ):

on another note, hamster have not been smell good lately.
but now they're fresh already like how they user too.
after boyfy came over and help cleaning the cage,
they smell of softlan and lemon! :PP

aite till here,
work tmr at 9 am
and dance at 5 pm.

-_-

goodnight.

Love, Ferra

dinner vs arcade vs job hunting

2009-02-04T11:26:00.003+08:00

*` if ever you feel like you've torn into pieces, i always here to guide you *

morning fellow bloghoppers.
(:

now im chatting to that smelly boyfy of mine
hurhur
he havent bath yet...

yesterday went out with him.
to job hunt at cwp
but end up in dissapointment.
lol :D

but then i got few numbers to call,
mayb they will hire me.
and i think it will be such a waste if they didnt hire me
cause according to the lovelies
" ferra is a good promoter"

yes, just because i promote my hamster to them,
they came out with that quote.
hahahah :DDD

today thought of goin to aminah's house with marsh
cause she said she's not feeling well
so mayb just wanna give her suprise, you know.
but then...
marsh also falling sick.
sighh.

everyone is getting sick.
the weather must be very bad eh.

oh! and yes, yestd i went to arcade with boyfy
to try out the new game
the stimulator thingy
it was fun!!!
and pening, i tell you...
hahahhaa :PP

seeing my roomate go school make me somehow miss seryecondary sch.
hurhur.
though i dont miss the studying
and yes, that remind me of i have to register for retaking my science.
tskkk.
very the leceh, you know...

i think till here then.

and erm,
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TOBI!
this was suppose to be yestd post but but but kan,
like lazy to update ytd.
heeee ((:

alritey till here,
toodles lovelies.

Love, FERRA
(:

love or friends?

2009-02-03T12:45:00.004+08:00

*` i wish we could stay strong together even in good or bad times *

is it true some people will change when they found someone better?
is it true people will change when they got someone with good position?
is it true that in little time people can change and turn their back on us?

i wonderrr...

it's sad if there is such people, you know.

i hope i had none of my lovelies like that.
but i've seen and experienced one.
and i hope history don't repeat itself again...

and yes, zee super cute.
i still wonder if she's goin to dance ltr or not,
and im wondering if i want to go or not either.
heee (:

fickle, i tell you.

till here, gooday.

Love, FERRA
(:

family gathering.

2009-02-02T12:32:00.002+08:00

*` it feels good to see everyone faces again after quite sometimes *

had family gathering
come birthday celebration and mini wedding celebration for the newlyweds.
and of course everyone enjoyed it.

it was fun till it last.
and food was super delicious
and everyone was super active.
i dont know what that means
but i totally enjoyed my weekends though.

parents and relatives from Kl came
and some of aunty's relatives from Singapore came too.
since we celebrated it in Jb.

its good to have a big terrace house to squeeze everybody in
cause guess wat,
if you think my cousins in the pics is alot wait till you meet the others.
haha.
there's alot who cannot make it cause busy with blablabla.
and like usual, its hard to meet with my cousins who are about same age as me.
there is total five of us but end up im the only one there
the rest, no idea.
-_-

but nonetheless, spending time with the kiddos keep me happy.
and yes, i feel good spending time with them.
though paka and the bf cannot come,
but wth.
yang penting happy.
hahaha :D

Congratulations to Om mus and tante ...
i forgot her name.
haha.
and he's my uncle from Indo, so my dad's cousin.
something like that.
finally dah married.
((:

there is many many pictures
but all in aunty's, cousin's camera, phone.
so yes,
i didnt really snap alot using my hp.
too busy helping my aunty take photos using her digi cam.
and how i wish she still have her DSLR camera.
sadeddd ):

anyhoos, goin for dance later.
hope to meet the girls
cause i miss them already.
heeee .

and yes meeting bf too.
cause he gonna lend me his PSP!!!!
hahaha.
but still, i will call him selfish.
-_-

alrite till here
before connection runs out.
heee.

arghhh, im missing the barbies alot lot lot stilll
):

Gooday.

Love, FERRA
(:

Happy 18th Monthsary.

2009-01-29T12:23:00.003+08:00

*` if it is meant to be that way, that i'll be willing to let it go *

Happy 18th Monthsary,
before it is too late to blog.
it was suppose to be two days ago entry
but wth.

connection always got lost
and i just have things to do.

boyfy bought me the cadbury chocs
that i've been wanting for quite sometimes.
heeee.

and he also got me a PSP!!!
wooohooo!!!
:DDD

hahaha, kiddding.
his family bought for him the PSP for his birthday
but i'm the one that have been hooked up with it.

and this is Paka, my roomate.
and we celebrate our 18th with her as welll.

and today she started school,
so far she said school is fun.
i hope it is fun till it last.
((:

and im sure she can make alot of friends with her mulut like mak nenek
heeee :D
kan paka? kan?
aku rindu kau sangat2.
hahaha .

and then, around 1-2 pm plus
we baked brownies.
dinie, paka and me.
but it was his work
kite cume kpo2 je dekat situ.
hurhur ((:

the not baked yet brownie.
heee.

and me and paka yang lebih2 want to put the glitter thingy.
just for decoration.
hahaha :D

and then at night boyfy brought us to Al Amin
and we had our dinner there.
heee ((:

and yes, this is my lovelies hamster who lighten up my heart when im down.
currently there is 5 babies and 1 mummy.
i want to sell away 3 of the babies and the mother.
this might be sad but i need to separate them before they make out
and i dont have enough budget to keep them all and buy their cage.
so whoever interested kindly tag me aite.
((:

1 baby = $10
1 mummy = $15

leave a message and i'll get back to you.
thank you so much
and i hope there's someone to buy them cause they're still young and fresh
and easier to take care off.
and yes, they are not smelly at all.
heeee ((:

till here.

GOODAY.

Love, FERRA

fulfilling weekends.

2009-01-26T17:11:00.003+08:00

*` it have been ages and i wish time could stop when we're all together *

so my saturday was splendid!
went over to aunty's house
and at night we head to marina barrage.

there's too many pictures that i lazy to upload all
but i manage to find time today to edit pics
and put them up in facebook.

it wasn't a regret to sleepover their place
and yes, i had fun
cam-whoring like how we used to back in the olden days.
* chey, mcm lamer nah gitu *

not much gossip telling
but then we still have fun laughing our ass off
specially with farah
* the 45 and 35 dollars thingy * - inside jokes

so yes,
it was worth goin there afterall.

and then followed by Sunday...

- one more day to love's birthday -

*` it's heartbreaking knowing that you've change but you're doing fine now *

Sunday was another splendid weekend for me !
:DD

i gotta spent time at dearest's house
with his family and relatives.
had karaoke session with them
and eating session was the most cannot carry one.
i forgot how many times i've ate yesterday.
giler i tell you.
:PP

and then around 8pm
we head to CDANS at Bukit Batok to play bowling.
heeee ((:

at first i almost gave up cause i sucks at bowling.
and i aint' a bowler, i tell you.
so abit mcm paham ah.
and then, the second game onwards i think im doing great already.

it was so pressurizing when people keep on saying this and that.
but since im saving my face,
so i just play
and we had SIX MATCH in total!
hahahah :DD

from idk how to play,
now can consider no longer the beginner stage ah!
hahaha.
i was quite impressed with myself though
and boyfy keep one saying I DOPE!
wth? -_-
ahhahaha.

so yeah,
and head home around 3 am plus.
it was tiring but i feel euphoric.
so cut the whining a bit
(:

so thats for Sunday.

MONDAY!

monday will forever be monday blue.
i woke up nobody at home except first bro.
itu pun he semangat want to go out already.
wth.

i rot at home today
and not knowing what to do
and since i woke up at 1plus pm,
i go do something productive.

for the very first time i clean Roxy's home on my own.
hahaha.
without love's help of course.
-_-
he is busy at his cousin's place for some family gathering.

house is so messy
that it just have to ruin my mood when i woke up.
i fee sucks though.
and thats explain why i've been playing lappy since i woke up
cause i just lazy to clean up the mess.
i feel so tired and lethargic.
and yes, im super hungry.
im STARVING !
:/

i wish i have go to aunty's place or somewhere
rather than staying here.
tsk.
or mayb spent time with beloved bestfriend.
chis bedebah tut tut betul la.
geramm.

ahh wells.
i end it here then.
im so tired and mashed up
-_-

btw,
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR.

and and and

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY DINIE FARIS.
i feel sad cause i didn't meet him
and yes family come first blablabla...

ahhh i just don't have mood.

goodbye.

what a good start for my first week of holiday eh?

Love, FERRA

can you hear me.

2009-01-24T15:14:00.002+08:00

*` i wish upon the star that we can ... *

yay! finally the long holiday have kicked in!
im excited and i still gotta find a decent job for myself.
i hope i can find one at causeway point.
i very lazy to travel so far.

and whatsnot, i'll be busy practicing for dancework
so i need a job that is near, so i can travel to Rp and my work place easily.

anyhoos, im at my aunty's place now.
chilling and eating and lepak-ing.
heee ((:
suppose to meet boyfy but wells.

i hope next week boyfy can follow my family to Jb
cause will be having family gathering
and eating and taboo games again.
:P
hope he can make it and so is Paka.

sad that paka cannot follow me to my aunty place today
but she have her school stuff she need to handle.
and yes, she's not use to my family yet.
):

ahh, till here then.
and im working on my blogshop.
there is just so many things i need to let go.
heee (:

so i hope people will give me support ok?
till here then,

toodles.

Love, FERRA
(:

will you stay?

2009-01-19T23:39:00.004+08:00

*` i wish i could be the girl with no worries and just happiness that lies around me*

sometimes i wonder if i'm good enough
or probably i'm nothing here nor there.
but at times, i also think that i can be worst at everything.
i wish that one day i know an answer to all my questions.

i wonder why i have to go through this.
i hate to feel this way cause its driving me mental.
but i just couldn't help it.

nobody is perfect,
that is the usual sentence people always use
but sometimes i think some people are perfect in their own ways.
physically, probably?

maybe character-wise they are not
but heck,
at this point of time who cares about people's character,anyway.

even a girl who have been kiss/touch by many guys, still the boy think she's the perfect one.
even when the boy have been sleeping around with many girls, the gf still thinks they are the one.
everything is just so so contradicting.
yet, people still live with it.

i really wonder why.

i wish i could be perfect,
but well if perfection is everywhere
wouldn't the world be so boring ?
imagine the world with no laughter, cries and sarcasm.

and somehow,
i miss the feeling of being a happy-go-lucky girl.
i wish i could be that girl again.

till here then,
goodnight people
and sorry to waste your time reading this not meaningful entry at all
((:

Love, FERRA

do you know what you really want?

2009-01-18T23:04:00.002+08:00

currently at aunty's crib.
i dont feel like doing anything.
i've been very cranky since morning,
and plus the cramps it didn't make anything better.

im wondering.
wonder alot of things.
i don't know why.
but it just came across my mind if i even know what i want.
sigh.

i need sometime on my own
and this time not even a single soul can help me.
not even the boyfriend.

alrite, sorry to waste your time reading this piece of shit.
i really feel worst now.

goodnight.

SGC Love!

2009-01-17T23:47:00.002+08:00

*` though i hate some of my candid, but this can be considered good *

so finally get the chance to go town with boyfy
if not we will be very busy with school and dance.
and since today there's Funkamania Competition at NUS
i took this chance to go out with him.
or else, we will seldom go out on weekends.

and i mean really GO OUT,and not spending time at his house
but nonetheless, i miss spending time with his parents all.
((:

and yes, boyfy is forever stubborn.
i know he know what i mean here
-_-

anyways, SGC GET INTO THE FINALS!!!
WOOOHOOOO!
DOPESHIT OR WHAT?!
TEEEHEEEHEEE :PPP

but sadly, no pictures taking with the whole crew
cause we left the place early since we were so hungry
so we decided to go first and not wait for the results.

Congrats to the SGC Funka's Team!
:DD
heeeee ((:

and yes, there's a very sad news here.
one of Roxy's baby died
because because because ...
SHE ATE HER OWN CHILD!
HOW CRUEL!!!!!
:///

i'm so sad )):
but then, i think its partly my fault
cause i didnt put enough food
cause previously before she gave birth, she eat a little bit
now, at night i put carrot by morning around 9am, the food all gone!

and i think she's very hungry this morning thats why she ate her child.
sighhh )):
but now, i store food alot for her in her cage already
and the cute thing is that, she will bring all her food and store them in her little green house.
hahaha.

i think she's scared we disturb her babies
that's why she do that.
but still, i love Roxy even though she's not a VIRGIN!
tsk -_-

ok till here then, toodles
and have a happy weekends.
im wondering if i should stay home tmr, or go out with Paka or go to boyfy's place.
hmphhh :??

and yes, bros coming home few hours from now
i hope my little hamster wont get scared to see them.
hahaha :P

ok, goodnight.

Love, FERRA
(:

twins!

2009-01-15T11:41:00.002+08:00

OMG!

ROXY, MY DARLING HAMSTER HAVE TWINSSS BABY!!!!!

IM EXCITED & SCARED !!!

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and i dont know how , why and when.
it's this morning, and Pak called me during 1st breakout.
i thought Roxy is dead or what.
hahaha :DDD

i want the babiessss.

this mean, bigger cage!
phewwww.
-__-

toodles.
i need to learn how to take care of them alrdy.

poor thing, im not there to watch her deliver the babies ):

consequential days.

2009-01-14T10:22:00.004+08:00

tuesday, 13th January 2009

i went to dance lesson yesterday after quite sometimes
and yes, few changes were made
we haveta run around woodlands and then around the school
it was super duper tiring & exhausting
tummy was so painful due to the sudden change
and thank god boyfy was there to accompany me all along
and so were the other dance mates.
so it wasn't that bad cause i manage to pull through it and came back to school safely.
the thought of giving up was there, but nahhh.
heee ((:

and after that had another one hour of bboy lesson
we learnt air freezee!
wooohooo!!!
i like it though.
it was so much fun, though abit scary

and yes, i wish to do it again.
though it was tiring but still i enjoyed larry's lesson
thank god, boyfy make me stay
or should i say, i force myself to stay?
hahaha :DD

so that's about ytd.

Monday, 11 January 2009

went to pet shop to get my baby hamster,
whom i call ROXY
for her foods, bedding and bathing sand.
me and boyfy was super excited la!
haha
and paka tooo.

Karina Nadiah, bro's good friend
is so generous to trust me to take care of her hamster
well, she have alot at home
and her mom take care of them, so yes.
i asked from her if can give me one.
and im happy to have Roxy.

such a good entertainment!
hahaha :D

so yes,
and we bought her a new playground.
haha
super cute.

Sunday, 11 January 2009

paka asked me out
haha :D
we met her friend, Ng Min
she's nice and all uh
and paka treat us lunch
so we had nasi Ayam Penyet RIA at Lucky Plaza

and us forgetting that it was Sunday,
and you know its maids day-out
the place was packed and crowded
but still we had good foood!
heee ((:

and then paka got her bag from Ng Min
and she bought this top from Depression at Far East.
and she got me a necklace at Forever 21 and
a cotton on sort of 'vest-cardigans' .
heee, so that explains why i'm happy.

thank you dearest Paka!
and after that met Arie,
and he treat us dinner!
hahaha.

so i really enjoyed my weekends.

and am looking forward to this weekened
bro's coming back
and mayb mom too.
and yes, need some talk about someone to that bro of mine.

need to knock some sense to his head.
like kena voodooo already.
tsk -_-

forget it,
till here then.

toodles and have fun.

Love, FERRA
((:

the first moon gazing.

2009-01-10T21:46:00.003+08:00

*` what we want have been fullfilled *

so after tired from the hip hop competition held in RP
we went to the nearest park at my house area
to moon gazing.

at first it was such a disappointment cause we cannot even see any stars
as the red clouds are covering it all,
and it seems like it gonna rain.
but then we decided to wait till we spot the first star
but still cannot locate them through the telescope.

and we waited till the passing clouds pass by
and there we saw the mooon!!!!
we were so excited like usual.
and since we've been wanted to look at the moon close up,
cause all this while whenever we go star gazing we manage to see the stars only.

and today is our lucky day!
i swear the mooon is so so so beautiful
it's like sparkling, even though there's craters
and it's not smooth at all,
even the edges are rough
if you can see it with your own eyes,
im sure you gonna love.
it is just so so so so gorgeous.

and boyfy got to take a snap of it,
through the telescope.
and taaaadaaaa!
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

beautiful right, right?
heeee
((:

and we actually use the more closer lens,
and you can really see the rocky surface
i tell you.
arrrghhh, gerammm!
i wanna go to the moon!
hahaha :PP

so yes,
we are the happy kids on earth.
heee
((:

im super excited cn?
whats more boyfy,
he's the one that go
' wow! you its so nice. wow!'
-_-

and this is just a random pic of me in the afternooon.
heee.
pardon me aite.

till here then,
goodnight.
and have a good weekend people
:))

Love, FERRA

when you got what you wanted.

2009-01-10T00:02:00.003+08:00

* i hope i still mean something to you like i did last time *

today we do not have an official practice
due to tomorrow's hip hop competition going on in RP,
organized by SGC.
so everyone is quite busy helping out and stuff,
and there was stage blocking and runs going on.

what me and boyfy did was,
we go to dance studio and learn new choreo.
since we're not involved in the thing and we got no task to do,
we dance at studio.
its better that way, i hate to see some irritating faces.
they're disgust me alot.
;/

oh,i miss the girlfriends alot.
idk if they realised it or not,
but seems like everyone is minding their own things.
i hope they give me chance to talk to them
and we do things we did.
gossips, sleepovers and shopping together.
i do miss the barbies alot.
):

and yes, i don't think i'll be spending this weekend with boyfy's fam
cause tmr we will be busy with sch event and
sunday i need to do some cleaning.
so guess, i'll be busy?

anyway, tmr will be the hip hop competition
whoever is reading my blog,
do come as guest or support any of your friend's team
so that we have crowds to support and make the event happening.

it will be at 3pm!
please do come cause SMC will be perfoming
and so SGC!
so yes, show some love ya'll.

plus it's RP's OPEN HOUSE!
there will be performances and many more exciting events,
so just let have fun and enjoy the weekends aite people?!
hope to see ya'll there
:PP

and oh! i'm gonna have my 11 weeks of holiday soon
if anyone of you overcome any vacancies at whoever workplace,
please let me know.
i need job, or i'll be bored sitting home.

i think that is all,
finally some proper update?
right, Paka?
:))

goodnight lovelies

ps:thanks Arie for the extension cable,
now i can blog at my room
:P

pps: i've been wanting to have colors extensions
but when i came back,
its like everyone almost have it on their hair.
tskk -_-

Love, FERRA

a good talk.

2009-01-08T23:36:00.002+08:00

*` it's good to let it out *

i feel better now.

so so so much better now.

and seeing that BF * not referring to my boyfriend *
irks me alot
-_-

goodnight lovelies.

new year wish.

2009-01-05T06:13:00.003+08:00

*` wish we can meet again soon *

Happy New Year
and
Merry Christmas!
:D

i know it's a bit too late,
but what the heck.
i'm back from Indo and Malaysia.

blogging now cause i cannot sleep
and

i have to stay awake or i'll be late to school, forever.

i misss the people here

and misss the miss kecoh, paka
and the bestfriend, farain
and the lovelies, hip hop mates.
heeee ((:

and specially that boy,the ophir guy ....
:PP

he's otw here already,
will be fetching me
and after school will probably go out with paka and arie.
that if their plan is not cancel yet.

ahh it feels good to be home.
heee.
boyfy came over yesterday,
and im glad to meet him.

but after 3 weeks of not meeting,
i suddendly feel weird and idk what to talk to him.
funny i tell you.
and yes, shy to see him.
hurhur, * monyet *

anyway, till here.
im having upset stomach.

update more soon, lovelies.

ps: someone's turning 20, oh he's so old now. lol :D

Love, FERRA

one more week.

2008-12-26T17:35:00.002+08:00

one more week
and i'll be back in Singapore, hopefully
(:

i so cannot wait to go back to
home with Miss Paka, school, dance and meet all the lovelies.
i've yet to get souvenirs for them,
and i cannot promise to get for everyone i know
if i have enough money then i'll buy for them, if not.
understand, understood ok?
heee :P

so far im fine here,
i want to go back asap but
at the same time, i want to stay here with my grandfather.
i feel so sad to loose him and not to meet him again when i come back here the next time.
i'm not sure when i'll be back here again also.
hmphhh...

anyhoos,
going to visit my late grandmother's graveyard and tmr will be goin to Medan.
will be sleeping over at relatives place
and i want to do some shopping there, provided dad give me money.
hurhur
-_-

boyfy otw to school for dance.
argh, how i miss dance.

alrite till here now,
gotta rush.

toodles.
xoxo

Love, FERRA
((:

another eight hours journey.

2008-12-22T17:17:00.003+08:00

here i am bloggin again.
i simply got nothing better to do.
for your info, i've gained weight and getting darker!
tsk -_-

and the weather here is so hot
i feel like bathing every seconds.
hurhur.
lame, i know.

between,
tonight i'll be going back to Banda Aceh to fetch my bros
actually my intention not to fetch them.
i dont want to go, thinking about the eight hours journey from here to there.
omggggg.

but since my beloved atuk asked me too
and he gave me money for bus tickets,
i have to go.
and he want me to see all the tsunami places,
cause that day is not enough.

and i think yesterday,
had earthquake at banda aceh.
im so scared.
haha.

anyway,
im lazy to blog alot.
i had my face and hair done yesterday at aunt's saloon.
gratis ( free ) !
heee ((:

till here then.
im bored and hot.
and hoping the internet connection won't piss me off.

toodles.

Love, FERRA

i hope to see you again.

2008-12-21T14:45:00.000+08:00

i just came back from swimming with my cousins.
the pool here is ...
i don't know how to describe.
not that bad but not too good also, so it's kinda in between.
and i still prefer Singapore's pool.

oh how i miss my beloved Singapore, and my school and my friends and my family and everybody else.
i cannot wait to go home and start school again,
but i'm not thinking too much
i wanna have fun here but somehow, i still miss there.

my two brothers coming here along with my uncle
on Tuesday.
i hope that will ease the missing feeling.
if not i feel like a loner alone here, though they are my relatives
but i just feel awkward after seven years of not coming back.

and one by one of my aunties have go back to their own place.
and they asked me to visit their place soon.
and my two cousins will be going back to Banda Aceh soon,
and left me alone here with my aunts and grandfather.

anyhoos, i miss dance alot and alot and alot.
i hope boyfy go for dance practices next week.
well, i asked him too.
haha.

alrite till here now,
going for hair treatment later at my aunty's hair saloon.
ahh im having headache now and i just wanna rest at home,
but at the same time i wanna go out cause i'm bored at home.

hurhur.
fickle minded, i tell you.

ok gooday!
and have fun people!

Love, FERRA
(:

daily updates.

2008-12-17T20:53:00.003+08:00

first day in Indonesia.
i reached here at Banda Aceh around 5 just now.
glad to reach here safely.
somehow i miss my parents and my cousin Ira,
but the most i miss dearly is, you-know-who.

i miss that boy oh-so-very-much.
but i bought prepaid here ,
so still can sms him.
heee (:

i think within few hours i've spent quite alot already.
i treat cousins at Es Teler Restaurant,
and then i bought kartu ( prepaid ), play arcade and got la a few more.
hmph.

tomorrow then i'll be going back to Langsa,
to meet the rest of my relatives.
my grandfather, aunts/uncles and more cousins.
now my 2 girl cousins stay here by themselves.

and their place was where the Tsunami striked 4 years back?
i was quite excited and asked alot of questions just now.
after seven years of not coming here,
everything have changed.
and first day i've ride the bike with them w/o wearing helmet!
scary or wat?!
lol :D

grrr.
i miss my darling boyfriend, dancing and my barbie girls and my dance mate.
i wonder if they all miss me?
well, don't think so.
haha.
but sure mr boyfriend miss me alot.

just few hours ago i was at Malaysia, Kl
now im at Indonesia, Aceh.
haha.
and soon on the 3rd or 4th, i'll be in Singapore.
hmphhh.
i misss SINGAPORE !!!!
))':

currently i'm at warnet ( internet cafe ) with my cousin
cause her place no wireless so cannot use her lappy.
i wish i can play pet society or most importantly chat with all the lovelies in Singapore.
heee.

alrite till here,
i think im going to update often
cause my aunty own 4 warnet at Langsa, so i can play them for free for how many hours i like.

and yes, my aunty getting married on the 19th
excited can?!
it's been ages since i saw people here getting married.
i forgot how the culture is.
hurhur.

oh boy! i misss dinie fariiss!!
i just cannot help it
and lucky i got Betsy to accompany me at night.
at least that will make me feel bf is closer to me.

ahh wells, till here then.
im gonna sms dearest boyfy.
heee (:

happy holidays people!

Love, FERRA
:P

my oh my.

2008-12-13T19:12:00.004+08:00

*` i wish you could fly with me to wherever i go *

finally the weekend kicked in
and
that means,
IT'S HOLIDAYS!
:DD

three weeks holidays for me,
and probably i'll be going back to Indo on the 19th Dec.
insyallah (:
i miss my cousins so so so much,
and wish to see them sooon.
:PPP

well, i've packed my stuff
parents in Jb now,
will be meeting them in few hours soon,
and going to have dinner together
and be sleeping over at nenek's house in Jb.

tomorrow will take our stuff,
and pooof!
offf we go to Kl.
though i cannot wait,
i'll surely miss my bf and my bestfriend and my roomate, Paka.
((:

hope i have a safe journey there.

and yes,
i've read the SGC blog
they want us to perform for Christmas show at Taka
i so want it and i want to contribute to Dancework 09 too,
but how?

i'm not gonna be here this holidays.
urgh, saddd
)):

anyhhooos,
im kinda lazy to update blog these few days
to idk what kind of sydrome i'm down to.
but yes, im lazy.

alrite,
till here then.
too much to tell but so lazy to type.
-_-

toodles
and
HAPPY HOLIDAYS, MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR
* in advance *

and yes, pet society is the new sex

Love, FERRA
:PPP

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha.

2008-12-08T09:15:00.002+08:00

*` today i feel what those children feel celebrating raya without parents with them *

i feel indeed sad,
cause my parents not here
to bring me to grandmama house.
im sure there will be delicious food for us,
but i cannot go.

parents in kl,
and mom coming home on the 15th dec to fetch us
and then we will be goin kl
on 19th prolly will be going back to Indonesia.

and i've been waiting to go back,
cause its like been ages since i went back there.
im sure everything have change.
boy! im excited
:D

but but but,
now since im involve in Dancework' 09
i'll be doomed.
-_-

i seriously dont know what to do now,
as in both is important
but i will give up dancework just to go back,
i know i can commit only after the three weeks holidays
and i think i'll be missing alot by the time i come back
):

ahh wellls.
we'll see how.

anyway,
mom said i don't have to go to grandmama house
since she celebrating today at her JB house.
and im thinking of following boyfy,
but then i feel like i will be the odd one out .

my aunts all are busy,
some in JB
some in Singapore but then,
confirm they have their own plans.
grrr.

and bro in Jb
thanks okie.

i'm officially a LONER!
haha.
Paka just left for work 30mins ago.
sighhhh.

till here then,
i try to do something later.
toodles.

btw,
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL ADHA TO ALL MUSLIMS
AND
ENJOY THE FEAST!
:DD

Love, FERRA
(:

it's just your insecurities.

2008-12-01T23:28:00.002+08:00

*` you never fail to make me feel like a kid once again *

today had a mini dance audition
it is to select who to join danceworks '09.
well i just gave a try to it.
but there will be a pre-select again on wednesday.
so still gotta try hard.

i am tired
and i got new game for me to spend my time with
especially when i'm home alone
at least that will keep me company.

and boyfy is playing bowling with his other secondary school mate at downtown east.
so i'm not sure if he have finish or not
they had this 'bowling championship' thingy every year.
and i wonder why of all time and day,
why must be today and at night?
haha.

can't they make it like on the weekends or something?
or earlier or so?
hmphh, boys.

and yes, i am not sure if he at home or not
cause his hp batt low.
so i guess i haveta wait for his call then.

and while waiting here i am bloggin,
just finish playing my new favourite game
and gonna take a shower soon.
and i think i'm gonna lie down on my bed and wait for dearest.

it's almost 12 now,
i better get going.
that boy better be home soon!
:D

GOODNIGHT LOVELIES (:

Love, FERRA